Thursday, December 20, 2012

importing english teachers FROM INDIA?? eh?

tried to be optimistic... attempt failed!
so if the current status of local english teachers in malaysia did not match the demand, hence why all those english teachers brought in were only used as mentors. why dont we use them as the teaching team itself? and wait, from india? eh?
but then seriously people, we are out of english teachers?? then what about those undergoing training at the colleges and universities... my lack of knowledge brain failed to digest this.

my very own beloved malaysia is sometimes too hard to be understood. yes i guess the government and ministry of education people have their own valid reasons for the betterment and future of malaysian nation. we, as the citizens of the country itself at times feel neglected and cornered by our own people. if the quality of the teachers are the main issues, thus change the curriculum and assessment techniques used in training the teachers. intead of bringing in some westerners into our own country to become the mentors for the teachers, simply sitting at the back of the class, observing and watching us teachers teaching and carrying out our lessons wont improve much. 


Thursday, November 15, 2012

he is here, there and everywhere

well.. i'm not talking about Justin Beiber or Psy..
*may God please protect me from making an entry related to them* amiiiiiiiiin

well i'm talking about my school administration people...
those higher ranking people.. starting from our new Headmaster and Senior Assistant Teachers ..

there is one of these 3 SATs, got himself involved in almost all areas... there were times when i saw himself being confused with his own role..thinking that he may actually be THE BOSS of the school.. when he actually isnt!!

there werent one event when he got himself in and took over other people's position...
THERE WERE A LOT!!! gooosh.. sometimes, this little raking me have the urge of saying..
WILL YOU PLEASE SHUT THE F*** OFF AND GO AWAY!
THIS ISNT YOUR PLACE TO CHIP IN!


*enough rant*

Tuesday, June 26, 2012

so you call that having a phone??

aku memangla jenis yang rasa nak lempang orang gini... stock stock yang telipon canggih len bagai...
tapi telipon canggih derang ni, tak boleh terima mesej ngan call kot... tu pasal kalau mesej, tak tau balas, call tak reti angkat...
kalau hal suka suki tu laju sangat kan... bila mende pendting boleh la seme tak dapat itu ini...
kang ade je yang aku amik telipon tu, aku letak jalan tar... aku lenyek ngan tayar kete je kang... telipon canggih ko tu, buat serf tenet ngan tangkap gambo, ngan main game... tu je kan fungsinya!

Wednesday, June 13, 2012

random rant of my worries

lets go straight to the point... i have no intention of going around the bush and talking something unrelated to this...

today was the third day of the second term of 2012 school session... and yes i am still having a hard time to gather my spirit and commitment to continue *well since when did i really have it?*

 i was on my ALMOST 2 weeks holiday starting last 30th Mei till 9th June. definitely that almost 2 weeks holiday was something that all teachers been waiting for after months of working our ass of trying to make sure the kids get at least a passing gred for all subjects. YES we worked our ass to make sure they get passing gred and A.. not much of real education... because real education wont pretty much help the kids to further their study to a better high school. haunted by the upper department people, either the one in the school itself, or the district people, also the state people. each time they came, what they wanted are greds! they wont bother whether the kids really are able to apply it, use it and benefit what they learned. ITS GRED TALKING! NOTHING ELSE.

well working on gred trust me is not an easy task to do. because most of the kids know and understand what we taught them, and able to respond to our questions and solve task given, yet they found it very problematic and troublesome when they were asked to pour it out on a piece of paper.
many of teachers found it really weird why this situation happened and it often frustrate us, because we know our kids and we know they are smart, clever or maybe good enough, but their greds were showing the other way round.

thus, we hesitantly not, carried out various extra classes and workshops in order to share with the kids all available answering methods. it is free for the kids to pick which way they feel comfortable with and easy to work with. after school, night, weekend even public holidays. but the amount of effort put didnt always give the expected impact. go and ask any hospital, clinic, you may get answer from the doctors and staffs, that most high blood pressure and heart problem are teachers. well guess why? we are always worried. about our kids education, performance and future. tell me how wont us worry when they are already at the age of 12, but still having problem in writing and reading. right now i'm at the age in which i see all the kids as my brothers and sisters, because i do have brother at their age. as much as i am worried about my youngest brother performance, i am worried about my kids too. i saw how much hope my parents have on him, thus i believe those kids' parents too have a high hope on their kids. but tell me what to do. all i wanna do is making sure that the kids gt good result, as we all know, *if you are a parent* whenever your kids show you their good result, it will be one of a great moment. we  want to give you that feeling, the feeling that you know your kids are doing well and you have a great son / daughter. because of that, we often frustrated with the end result.

having all these to worry and work on, my 2 weeks relaxing holiday was totally disturbed when my mother kind of pushing me to find a guy to marry with. i understand, it is not her fault entirely. i am already at the age in which i am supposed to have my own family now. and my parents are at the age when they are supposed to see some lil kids running around... *not belong to them, but mine*. my father is someone who others know, thus because of that, may people will be asking when he'll be a father in law and all... same goes to my mom... they must be stressed because of it too...
now.... how....
i am just fine now... not that i dont want someone to love... but so far i havent met one that i love


Sunday, June 3, 2012

kpop fans life in malaysia

everyday, the leader of my country screamed to the people how we all should get united, as unity is the main force to overcome any things ever coming towards us, and unity is the main strength that will move us forward..
just like jessie j song lyrics,
'we need to take it back in time,
when music make us all unite'
 and here one thing that i saw able to unite many of teenagers and young generations is being pushed away by some possibilities of negative impact it may bring...
Malaysia is a multiracial country, with various languages, religions and ways of living.. we fought and argued with each others in order to hold up our believe, but out of all these issues, there is one thing that uniting many of us, although i wont be saying it applicable to everyone...its music.... and what i would be referring to is kpop... kpop bring malays, chinese, indians all together.. and this one thing that bring us together is now facing many objections from many..
for instance, political views and believe... we may not agree on the same thing, and by the time of the election, we would be able to see various post and cynical statuses being updated on facebook and twitter... trying to point at each others.. and yes we do respond and argued with others in silent, by posting statuses without clearly referring to the certain people... but hey.. we know each others, and obviously know, who those post meant to... but do we end up hating each other??
NO! and guess what brought us back together.. its kpop music...
try yourself, push away all your prejudice and negative view, for once, spend your time at any concert or gathering with many other kpop fandoms, and you'll see how how beautiful it is... despite the screaming and fangirling moment which you may not understand it... you'll see when we like the same thing, share the same interest... we just dont bother who they are... its just us and the music..
i will not be denying how kpop does bring negative impact towards our malaysian teenagers.. as there are negative impacts, which i dont have to list down, because i bet you all know it very well... but in everything exist in this world, it comes with two sides.. the good and the bad, let us all together count in the good thing... we are not stupid to plainly follow the negative thing...
besides, music from other countries do have negative impacts too, so why kpop is your main target now!



Saturday, June 2, 2012

sometimes i wish

woke up this morning with a slight daze and confusion, i wish that i am no longer me, who is sleeping here, waking up to that, and will be going back to those thing.
i wish i am someone who works with the palace.. heheheeee... stupid wish isnt it?
i can still be me, that i am still an educator, teaching english, as english is still my passion, so why cant i teach the royal kids? the little young prince and princess.... dealing with some spoil kids.. hehehehee...
then, while working there, i'll met someone..my prince charming... may not necessarily be the royal prince himself, but the prince that i think is a prince...of my heart... as charming as eun shi kyung...
OKAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY.. thats it! my real wish is to meet someone like un shi kyung.. if you get it..
kekekkee.. this delusional me.. when will i ever grow up and live in the real world...

Friday, June 1, 2012

currently obssessing over Lee Seung Gi

all thanks to King 2 Hearts that makes me fall in love with his charismatic king character.. Lee Seung Gi.. i think you should really be a king.. wang saeja... kekekek.... you have that stand... and make me your wangbi mama please............. heheheh






The King 2 Hearts drama

done watching The King 2Hearts.... i guessed its korean drama latest trend... they wont have a 100% happy ending for the characters.... all the same in Rooftop Prince, and Fashion King too...
watching K2H makes me wonder.... does our King face that kind of issues and problems too?? leading a nation is definitely not an easy task....

Tuesday, May 8, 2012

how long will continue with this

6.25 am - wake up
6.57 am - drive to school
7.10 am - arrive at school
7.20 am - school session starts
1.10 pm - school session end

1.30 pm - 4.30 pm - possibilities for meeting, discussions and courses

5.00 pm - evening nap
6.30 pm - wake up

8.00 pm - 11.00 pm - sit at the living room, with laptop, and writing RPH

11.30 pm - iron baju kurung

12.30 pm - sleep


EVERYDAY..................................................................... the whole routine will be repeated 5 or 6 days a week

Tuesday, April 17, 2012

do you hate me??

its been quite long since the previous entry... well if there is anyone reading this, well i bet there isn't which i kinda like it too, because it makes me free to express myself here, without being restricted, for your information, i am no diligent blog writer. i write whenever i feel like i want to, and whatever i think at that particular moment.

as for now, i suddenly feel like writing an entry due to yesterday incident. fist allow me to explain, that i am a newbie educator.. that's what people in my field love to call ourselves.. we aint teacher. we come to school everyday to educate youngsters, and not to teach, although yeaah somehow reflecting back on NKRA and related stuff which requires us to produce kids with good greds and not kids who holistically developed, then we teach!

after almost 4 years of undergoing the true reality of malaysian education scenario, i finally start to change into a no longer yes mam, i'll do it, and nod nod type of person, to a hey you, please, i dont think that's my work to do.

when we carried our P & P, which is actually mean Pembelajaran dan Pengajaran, we teachers often nagged and even scolded the kids when we found out that they didnt pay attention to us. but then, didnt we learned it during our university times, that kids have really short attention span? yet we forced them to sit all day long, listening to us talk talk and talk and expect them to absorb it all? because they are kids, then we should be able to understand their nature of easily deteriorating interest towards lesson, thus teachers are encouraged to include games, quizzes, crafts and some other cross curricular activities throughout the lesson. so that the pupils won't despise the sight of us entering the class, knowing it will be a long dragging hours of boring stuff.

i somehow think, that i am an attention seeker, or even desperado, because i am worried if my kids dont like me. i'll try my best to please them throughout my lesson. hating me will somehow makes them hate the subject i taught. hating the subject means dieeeeeeeeee....

then again, what if adults unable to give their focus and attention during important discussion or talk? okay lets make it straight to the point. TEACHERS! what if teachers unable to listen well and grab the main gist of a discussion. then it means you'll start asking questions for thing you should very well known thus irritating others. and this, seriously kill me.

its like a doctor went to a clinic and asked to the others what he should do.

that kind of thing... dont you just feel like strangling them to death? and just because of that, i generously 'sound' a senior teacher yesterday during a meeting. A VERY SENIOR AND EXTRA SENSITIVE TEACHER.

now, DO YOU HATE ME??






.........do i even give a shit.......

Thursday, March 29, 2012

bahasa bunga bunga guy? yes and no!

romantic guy? yes if he express himself to me.. secretly to me.. not for anyone else..in public?? just help me by not doing it... i'll die there and then!
guy with flowery decorative cherry on top type of talking, again! NOOOOOOOOOOO!
*runaway as far as i can*

just when i responded to someone on why this person felt down, and that person replied to me with all this wiseman talk, seriously kill me!
and thus i made a status on facebook how the respond literally scared the shit out of me *without making it obvious that i was talking about it*, and the person 'like' my status and being all concern...

a.w.k.w.a.r.d...............................

Friday, March 16, 2012

i'm as simple as that

that happy moment when you finally found your pupils answering questions the way you taught them how... a teacher happiness is as simple as that.. we dont ask for complicated things...
no please dont get me wrong.. i have no intention of forming a stereotypical group of robotic pupils who answered questions in the same exact form as i thought them too..
for me, it means they understood what i thought.. it means my objectives were successfully achieved.. and based on their understanding of what i taught, they are free to manipulate the questions and answer it using as many ways as they can, as long as it is in line with the expected answers...
whenever pupils get a correct answer, get good mark, teachers are the one who will feel happy, though the pupils dont really care.. because most of the time, i imagined myself teaching my brothers... as much as i am worried for my brother's future when he unable to perform well at school, i have the same concern for my pupils..
i'm foolish right right? that i am judging my brother's and pupils' future simply basing on their education performance....

Thursday, March 1, 2012

we are TEACHERS!

we CAN'T feel sad.. we should not have that kind of feeling or emotion.. even though when the kids didnt pay attention to lesson, didnt listen to us, didnt do the work, didnt appreciate the efforts we put in preparing the teaching aids... we SHOULD ONLY love them..
oooh i forgotten... we are not human... we are TEACHERS!

Tuesday, February 28, 2012

Today was A Bad Day

first, i woke up late... when i opened my eyes.. the sun was shining straight to my face.. the heat of the sun hit me, thus it woke me up... i was confused... i was wondering if i woke up from evening nap... but then, evening nap means i slept after i came back from work..isnt it? but how come i have no memory of being at school? so, i searched for my phone.. cant find it! WHERE IS IT???? after a few moment of chaos, i finally found it... in my handbag... looking at the phone, it shockingly shown 7.40 a.m. WHUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUT???? terrified and completely flustered.. i sms-ed one of my school teacher, asking whether my school headmaster was in good mood or bad.. coz i'm gonna call him to ask for CRK... however, due to bad celcom connection, the sms didnt reach her... so, after paring to God, i called my headmaster.. sincerely confessed to him, he laughed listening to it... dude.. i was really scared when i was about to call him, but the moment i heard him laughing..... uuuuuuh... thank God... he told me to just come to school.... well... although i was actually hopping he would just approve my CRK.... so that i can continue with my sleep, but then, since he wasnt angry, i woke up from bed and get ready...

arriving at school, with attention from a few teachers who saw my car entering the school gate, i simply waved and smiled at them... LOL...

but the whole bad situation didnt just stop there.. another unfortunate event continued to happen during the recess time. out of all time, must it really happened at that time? i fell flat on the floor in front of the English Hut... i lost my balance? i fell asleep? fainted?.. the minute i realized it, i was already lying on the floor... the school cleaners rushed to me, to help me get up... since it happened during the recess time, definitely all of the pupils were at the canteen... AND THE TEACHERS TOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO... demnit! that was the very first tie i fainted.. i guess i fainted...

aaaaaaaaaih.... despite all the bad things happened.. stayed back at school until 5 something, since i have extra class with the year 6 pupils, and PIBG meeting!

Monday, February 27, 2012

Housemates

For the rest of the time i've been teaching in this place, i've been staying with more than one housemates... Met various types of people, with various personalities, behaviors and attitude...

The first housemate was AA... i have no problem with her... she was a lay back person..and we occasionally have fun together.. although both of us didn't really share the same interest, i have no problem fitting in with her..

After a few days, or maybe a week or more?? HAHAHHAa... cant really recall... another 2 housemates moved in... they were J and MA... huummmp... at first i cant really fit in with MA and J... i found it awkward with both of them... J was too straightforward, that she often made me feel unappreciated, while MA .... nothing happened between the both of us.. but it was just awkward... AA and J weren't staying long with us since they are contract workers.. after a few months, their contracts were ended..so they moved out from our house.. leaving me and MA staying together... i guessed this was the survival situation happened.. because there were just the both of us staying together, we began to fit each other and talked more frequent... things went on well until a new housemate moved in...

another girl moved into the house... let me introduced her as ES... ES was someone that MA knew through facebook, ES was a friend of MA's friend.. so,although they didnt really closely acquainted, but they have heard of each other previously... besides, ES friends were also MA friends... so, in this case, i felt totally left out..they began to talk on things which i obviously have no idea..making me felt so left out... just to tell you ES was another straightforward person.. only that her level was so much higher than J... i always have problem with people who are straightforward.. because i am not that kind of person.. i frequently felt hurt and sad because of their words.. this is because, i am not the type of person who easily share my feelings..thus this kind of people often make me offended... although at first we were completely fine.. slowly i felt deserted... i just have no idea why... i let it be...

until one day... another girl moved in.. and she was EE... my first impression of EE wasnt that good... i found her too social and wild.. but after a few week staying with her, i figured out that she wasn't like that... i think she was cute despite of her age... i mean.. she was older than me.. but maybe because of her personality... i never really feel the age gap... until one day... MA and ES moved out from the house..leaving both me and EE... i totally have no idea why both of them moved... the only thing i knew, both of them moved out at peak of awkwardness occurred in the house.. i was away when they left the house, attending a three days course.. so i didnt get any explanation from them on why they moved.. even EE asked me why, which i was totally clueless

since then, i stayed with EE for really long time... we mixed with each other well... no problem at all.. we went out and have fun together..shared happy moments together....

finally recently... both of us get 2 new housemates...

they didnt come together... one of them moved in the of mid january... she is NA... NA is just like many other girl.. i didnt find it hard to mix with her.. we may not share the same interest, but things just go on well.... she is someone who is easy going.. was quite jealous of her personality.. she is able to mingle with guys easily.. maybe because of her working environment....

and lastly a new housemate that just joined the house this week... or was it previous week? hummmp.. she is F... this one... kinda hard for me to say.. it is too early for me to judge her... but she has this ES personality.. her thing is hers.. other people things can also be hers.. which make the whole situation awkward... besides, she spent most of her time in her room..less communication will create uncomfortable atmosphere... totally dont like this at all

i hope, as time moves on.. she'll mix with us... unlike NA... although NA just stayed with me AN EE, we totally have no problem.. so far... kekekkeeee

Saturday, February 25, 2012

HOH?? O__O... miss mazliana!!!!!!!!!! T_____T


this morning, lazily woke up, i dragged myself to school coz i have co-curriculum activities with my kids.. well...i have this saturday-is-not-a-working-day mindset.. so, going to work on saturday is definitely not my thing.. but what shall i say, being a teacher, your working time isnt gazetted.. so if someone would want to claim we teachers work from morning to 1.30, i'm gonna bitchslapped you seriously hard... like a doctor, who will always be oncall, we teachers too.. whenever we are called to serve the country, we must come at once, unless there is something really critical, as in related to death will hinder us from coming to work...

so yeaaah. i went to school... i have this weird feeling along the way.. but i let it be.. all the time i was driving, i felt so much like flying..floating...as if i was on drug...*but i didnt consume any drug or whatsoever wokay??* and i safely arrived at my beloved school, SK Ayer Manis, Kulai.. the activity supposed to start at 8.00, but as usual, Saturday activity... i entered the school gate around 8.05 like that... as i was about to enter, another car from the school approached, was about to come out. but i cant stop from entering the school gate... any car or lorry will hit me... so i continue entering, while cikgu razif, the other car reversed his car...

in order to turn left and enter the teachers' car park, i should have taken more right side... however, since cikgu razif's car was there, i was unable to do it... trying my luck.. i slowly entered the narrow path to the car park...

that was when the whole thing happened! i sensed my car touched something.. but i was not sure which part of my car... i stopped my car immediately... looked outside from my window.. still i dont dare to scroll down my window..too scared to know what had happened... I saw cikgu razif hitting his forehead... i know something bad had happened....slowly i scrolled down my window, and i heard the school kids screaming my name... "miss mazliana... miss mazliana langgar batu!!!" a few teachers who were at the assembly court immediately approached... looking at my car... i was still firmly sitting in my car, with both hand still gripping on the steering... dont dare to come out... i asked them if it was bad... they told me... *tak lekuk... tapi calar* DEMNIT!!

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaih.... cam tau je aku baru masuk gaji... cis cis cis....

before polished


after polished

Wednesday, February 22, 2012

Why I ♥ Kpop

why i love kpop.. or maybe the suitable title for this entry is actually how much kpop really affecting my emotion, feeling simultaneously my life... to many other, kpop merely just an obsession of a bunch of delusional fangirls *maybe some boys too*. an obsession that is costly, since most of us simply dont mind spending our money on buying 'ridiculous' and 'absurd' things like ORIGINAL ALBUM since in this high-tech world we can simply download it, whatmore on merchandise like fanmade tee, stickers, keychains, towels, pillow, tumbler, umbrella, notebook, mousepad, socks, bracelets, necklace.. you name it, we have it!

and when we talk about original albums, cd, dvd, photobook, storybook, magazines which will cost us definitely more than RM50.. *never happen in kpop life for an album to cost RM50, and if somehow there is, we will doubt it originality, and might refuse to buy it.. or maybe it is just me?? hahhhahahaa.. i have this weird view, if kpop thing is cheap, it gotta be fake fanmade one... even fanmade merchs are expensive! so whatmore if you are buying original direct from south korea things... A TOOTHBRUSH WOULD COST RM75!! YES!! a friggin toothbrush that even oral b or jordan would only cost RM8, but just because it is promoted, printed, decorated, and original from south korea, it will be RM75.. and believe me.. FANGIRLS BOUGHT IT! well not me.. I WANT TO! but no laaaaa... i better spend it on album... i'm not that rich.. government servant won't be rich..unless you dig it from some other pockets.. you know what i mean...

duuuuuuuuuh... this is sooooooooo me! i nag and nag and nag and get totally out of the topic.. *bitchslap myself* PANG!!!

the reason for my entry today is to actually give you a simple story.. simple yeah?? i try to...since it is already 11.36pm and i haven't ironed my baju kurung for tomorrow... where were I again?? ooowh yeaah.. there... KPOP SAVE MY ALMOST DOWN THE HILL DAY... i received a super ozem bad news yesterday that there is probability for JPN people to come for 'pemantauan' for school around Kulai district yesterday from my neighbour.. and they somewhat specifically will be observing SBOA 'school based oral assessment' files.. which for 2012, I HAVENT TOUCHED AT ALL!!! (X__X) dang!! its been 2 months since the school session begun, and it is really irresponsible of me for not working on it yet... i may create as many excuses as i can, but 2 months is too much, so i'd rather not create any excuse..you'll hate it.. i hate it too! but then around 8.40am like that.. i receive a message from her saying that the JPN people wont come today, because KPM people came down to JPN.. so they delay it... delay?? is that the word.. nooooo.. what is it for tangguh?? no.. cancel... they cancel today observation... i just hope they wont come this week.. coz even if they come tomorrow or friday.. still there is nothing in the file... i dont want to jeopardize the school name, my gb name, and definitely my name too.. i'll be the hit topic for the rest of this year.. trust me.. my gb will be talking about it.. till the end of the year.. it will be repeated in each school meeting, and being tortured by that, having other teachers to listen to it, i'll feel suicidal... how much i hate it, when because of other teachers made mistake, the rest of the school will be nagged and scolded by the gb, i believe other teachers will hate it too... so i dont want the to go through that, because of me...

so, today, after a few hours of mental emotionally strenuous meeting, i came back with a heavy heart... i so much feel like wanna sleep at the school and settle the whole 10 SBOA files... but, 'MACAM LA BERANI NAK DUDUK KAT TEMPAT JIN BERTENDANG TU KAAAAAAAAAAAN', i sat in fron of my laptop, after hanging my already done laundry, trying to see if the re is anything interesting on facebook, and yessssh! a video was posted by an online friend, Lyan, about deary darling park yoochun! that 1 minute? 2 minute video? made me smile... i got all jiggly smiley... holding hands tight to my mouth, stopping the urge to scream and sprout nonsense language because of manly charisma of park yoochun... aaaaaaaaaaaaih... you see? you see? did you see? i came back fro the meeting, feeling all tired and fatigue, but just because of that short video, it brighten my day.. although i'm back to square..because 'the tomorrow' is marching towards me.. in less than 7 minutes, it will be tomorrow... let us just hope the JPN people are busy for Thursday.. and Friday is just too short for them to travel from JB to Kulai and observe school... please just come next week... so that nobody's life will be in danger..
dearest JPN people.. have heart.. spare me!

i wanna write more.. really really.. to explain more on how kpop affected me positively.. NEGATIVELY??? media does it better... dont ask me...

Tuesday, February 14, 2012

the eeerrhhhh moment

today i didnt go to work because i didnt feel well at all.. woke early the morning to get ready to work as usual.. but i ended up spending more times than usual in the toilet... my stomach.. something was really wrong... it was like everything in my tummy wanna get out all at once... once it stopped and i tried to get up from the seat... a strong connection between my cute butt and the toilet bowl pulled me back... ooorrrghhh... totally tiring moment.. i just have no idea how many times i tried to stand up, but failed to do so.. after a few minutes, A FEW MINUTES?? it could actually be an hour, i finally managed to escape from the toilet... pheeeew~~~ what a battle i have in there...
TOTALLY FORGOTTEN, I HAVE TO GO TO WORK! dude~~~~ what time is it... i almost screamed out loud, but i calmed myself, took my phone slowly... but i knew it.. i'm in deep mess.. because the sun had shined brightly.... look at the time on my phone.... aaaaih... 7.10... i have exactly 10 minutes before my work time begun.. i'm doomed!
frantically i ran to my baju kurung, thats when i felt totaly imbalance and dizzy.. as if the floor was bumpy here and there... and the ceiling was moving.... whhooaaa~~~ this aint gonna work... i cant go to work like this.. driving on the road like this?? you may end up seeing me on the front page of newspaper... so yeaaaah... i slowly lay down on my bed... text another teacher at school, and asked her help to inform the admin that i cant come to school...
so i fell into deep slumber... after applying some hot oil on my stomach.. eeergghh.. there were huge pterodactyl flying in my stomach chasing for it food...
okay.. so done with that chapter.... after a few hours, i woke up.. feeling all healthy, but hungry.. but yeaah.. some tiny bits of imbalance-ness was still there, but i think i can manage to drive to clinic...

Saturday, February 11, 2012

6 hours of boring session

well today... the rest of Malaysia..i guess the rest of Malaysian teachers and pupils went to school, although it is Saturday. because today was a replacement school day, for the previous Chinese New year holiday... we took extra 2 days.. so, kids..there is no such thing as free stuff in this world right? thus we have to replace the holiday that we took...
and just to make it super awesome, today, my school was totally lacked of teachers.. quite a number of them involved with the training of our school athletes for the district level at Kulai stadium, while a few more involved with some other courses here and there... thus leaving a few pitiful teachers that still need to 'face' the pupils.. i repeat 'face' the pupils for the rest of 6 hours...
we cant really teach the pupils... wonder why? because my school, unlike many other schools, even if it is saturday or sunday, replacement school day or normal school day, pupils will all excitedly come to school..so few of them ponteng... so, there is no such thing as gabung kelas, play around and do whatever-stuff-you-want that we can do... teachers need to stay in the SAME class since 7.20 till 1.10.. IMAGINE THAT!! facing the same faces from morning till evening.. i bet even the kids were bored to see our faces... HAHHAHAHAA...
well.. trying not to be irresponsible teacher, i carried out my normal fun english lesson before the recess time... but after recess?? dude... i cant take it no more.. SO WHAT WE DO?? drawing!!! ngeeeeeeeeehehhee... kids love drawing and colouring.. but i cant just let them draw whatever they want, coz they may end up drawing benten.. angry birds or even writing super corny love letters.. LOVE LETTERS?? yessssh... standard 2 kids can write love letter.. well i didnt actually scold them for doing so, not that i encourage them... but.. at that age.. just let them have fun..making friend.. for them, when you like someone from different gender...its love... i know for us it brings different matter after all... but yeaaah.. why not.. as long as they dont do immoral and sinful thing.. sharing love is a good thing...
there... finally the whole 6 hours end.. although i was just monitoring them.. but.. errrh... i choose not to do it frequently.. i can simply die due to high level of boredom! even the kids will hate me!
kekekekeeee

geeeeeeez.. i should have taken some ohsem masterpiece of the kids right?? hehe

Monday, February 6, 2012

a dream

i wanna walk on the beach... letting the gentle sea breeze touches my face and the small waves of the shore wet my feet... watching the evening sun sets on its own... and the birds flying back to their nests... as the birds fly away and further, together with the sounds, they leaved me behind with nothing, but alone at the shore.... allow me to close my eyes.. think of nothing but peace and freedom...
all i want, is just a quiet moment.....