I Hate Myself for Saying This

Right now, for all that live in the fandom of kpop must have definitely well known about DBSK-sm.ent issue...
Sincerely I'm saying, I believe that DBSK will win this...but the sad thing is that, thing won't be the same the same..they'll stay together..and we will always be by their side...won't we?
I will! Are you?
But things won't be like before...they will no longer be the rising god of the east...they will only be DBSK..although rising god of the east is the meaning of their name, but I'm afraid, they will only have the name...merely...name..
I was watching 2009 Golden Disk Award last night, when I was watching SHINee introduction, my heart was beating really fast as if it will pop-out at any time if i received any shock...I can't take it..I stopped watching it...The introduction, the introduction that SHINee used that night is so DBSK..
Do you get what I mean..It is a powerful intro..that even their sunbae, Super Junior...Girls Generation weren't inroduced in such manner...Previously, only DBSK was introduced in such way.
Hence why, my heart told me, sm.ent focus right now had transfered to SHINee.. sm.ent is DBSKing SHINee... I don't know if you understand this...but thats the only way for me to explain it. All of us kept on comforting ourself by saying, it is a big lost for sm.ent to dump DBSK away.. to choose not to follow DBSK request means to reject them and sm.ent won'y do such thing as DBSK is their gold source...but I started to doubt this...sm.ent aint a bunch of stupid people... SHINee will quickly replace DBSK...and DBSK will be forgotten by the koreans...
How i wish all this had never actually happened...How i wish i could turn back time...i'll fly to korea and warn DBSK, that this will only damage themselves...
Does this mean that i have lost my hope..NO! My answer is no...I will always stick to the 5..Will always be keeping to the faith...because I Love Them...

Were We DECEIVED......AGAIN??????????

JUST AFTER I READ THIS::

[TRANS] 091212 Masato Matsuura Mail to His Friendlist

I drink and drink, but I couldn’t get myself to sleep

Good morning. This is AVEX president Matsuura.
I woke up at 7:47 and by now had finished reading all the messages and comments.
I also thought to myself why it becomes like this,
Frankly, I think everyone must have been thinking “hey, stop fooling us”

If only I could, I really want to help you calming down even just a little bit

Looking back the past 5 years
Thinking of anything I’m able to do, I’ve been supporting them.
I did all of those, because I really like them

I will not forget the impression when I first met them
I remember I said to Lee Soo-man when they’re introduced to me, “I’m going to be their producer.”
They didn’t speak Japanese at all at the moment, so maybe they didn’t remember this.
However eventually, I started to be busy as a president
So rather than being their producer, I’m merely only backing them up

At the beginning of last year a-nation I made promise to them
“I promise that you’ll be performing at Music Station” although I’m not actually a qualified man to make such promise (T/N: since he doesn’t have any influence in MS)

The joy they showed to me, I will never forget that

Because I never can forget that, I started working like a dog doing all my best
So did the staffs

And when they had just appeared for the very first time, after the program
I still remember the words those five members told me at that time
They kept taking turns on the phone, thanking me
I can not forget that

Nevertheless, why…

My tears were also falling down and I couldn’t write anymore
This feeling which doesn’t have a place to convey should have been carried out somewhere…

However, it’s a self punishment for myself that it’s all because my incompetence

Matsuura Masato
masato max matsuura

PS. I might update my blog on the weekend, I’ll be grateful if you read it without thinking “This is such a poor person”.

……………………………….

Today’s messages is dedicated for fans of particular artist
If I write this on my blog, the media will pick it up to make some stories
That’s why I need to write it here.

Please forgive me.

© masato matsuura


source: masato matsuura mail
trans: sharingyoochun@wordpress

I SUDDENLY STRUCKED BY A LIGHTNING *not the real one i mean*

max matsuura nim... i love you i love you i love you........but you know what, suddenly i'm getting suspicious of this whole kind-loving-supportive-fans sided-ceo situation...there;s too much drama in this...dont you think so? somebody tell me its not....ouuuwh...here comes the hell premonition....

will there still be a chance for us to listen to them?

Just now i was watching their T tour dvd, the second half of the concert, and i dont know why, listening to kiss shitta mamma sayonara suddenly make me teary...
their vocal, their emotion and pure love cant be seen no matter where i turn to right now..
i really want to hear to it again...
the sound of five men, that went through hardship together just in the name of love and because of their dream, united into one most powerful touching voice...
i want to listen to it again
as a matter of fact, i believe, even they want to listen to their own voice again, not the voice that you'll hear as you speak, but a magical 5 voices that united into 1 heavenly love voice...the sound of dong bang shin ki, the sound of tohoshinki... that is the music that i want to hear the most right now
not the force happiness voice that they fake on stage, merely to make the fans joy, but their pure soul voice
is there any chance for all of us to listen to it again?
the path seems too dark
the burden seems too heavy
the road seems too rough
will they be able to walk through it
because they are alone right now
there are maybe 800 000 fans or even more shall i say will always be praying and cheering for them from far, but those are the only things that we can do
we can fight the war together with them
i'm afraid, that they might lose the battle
for i have a frail heart, that i might be unable to take it
dear god, please...mercy on them please...
for all the grace that you gave on me, how i dearly wish, i could give it to them
my dearest 5, the reason why i want to live meaningfully and reach for dream
please...save them....

The Rose - Westlife