After 25 years of Living, I am still Searching for the Real ME

There would be some times when i feel like is this really what i want. And as a matter of fact do i really want. Has there any way for me to figure it out. I don't wanna live my life waiting for things to come one by one and accept it without any questions. That's not the life that i want to live. yeaaah yeaaah.. i keep on saying this to myself. i keep on telling myself i wanna change the way i lead my life, yet still i didn't do anything about it. so who to blame other than me.
i want to see the world as a new place, a place to venture, a place to explore..life is too short for me to worry about things that hasn't happened yet
maybe this is just the way my life should be, the thing that i should do is, how am i going to live it.
will i live it in such a regretful way, or will be something that i can proudly talk about if i ever have my own grandchildren in the future... hahahhahaaa.. ironic ain't it? i started writing this entry as if i am sad and dissapointed with my life... and yes, there were some times that i do felt that way, i can't deny it... but ey, i think i should be grateful with my life shouldn't i?
live it to the fullest. work hard so that every penny i earned taste the sweetest taste ever...
i am going to live it
let the past left behind... look behind whenever needed... look forward all the time
whatever other people going to say about me, it's me who can determine my life. not them. not my parents. even God tell us to change our life the way we want it!

Sharing Happiness

Thousands of candles can be lighted from a single candle,
and the life
of the candle will not be shortened.
Happiness never decreases by being shared