Sunday, December 13, 2009

I Hate Myself for Saying This

Right now, for all that live in the fandom of kpop must have definitely well known about DBSK-sm.ent issue...
Sincerely I'm saying, I believe that DBSK will win this...but the sad thing is that, thing won't be the same the same..they'll stay together..and we will always be by their side...won't we?
I will! Are you?
But things won't be like before...they will no longer be the rising god of the east...they will only be DBSK..although rising god of the east is the meaning of their name, but I'm afraid, they will only have the name...merely...name..
I was watching 2009 Golden Disk Award last night, when I was watching SHINee introduction, my heart was beating really fast as if it will pop-out at any time if i received any shock...I can't take it..I stopped watching it...The introduction, the introduction that SHINee used that night is so DBSK..
Do you get what I mean..It is a powerful intro..that even their sunbae, Super Junior...Girls Generation weren't inroduced in such manner...Previously, only DBSK was introduced in such way.
Hence why, my heart told me, sm.ent focus right now had transfered to SHINee.. sm.ent is DBSKing SHINee... I don't know if you understand this...but thats the only way for me to explain it. All of us kept on comforting ourself by saying, it is a big lost for sm.ent to dump DBSK away.. to choose not to follow DBSK request means to reject them and sm.ent won'y do such thing as DBSK is their gold source...but I started to doubt this...sm.ent aint a bunch of stupid people... SHINee will quickly replace DBSK...and DBSK will be forgotten by the koreans...
How i wish all this had never actually happened...How i wish i could turn back time...i'll fly to korea and warn DBSK, that this will only damage themselves...
Does this mean that i have lost my hope..NO! My answer is no...I will always stick to the 5..Will always be keeping to the faith...because I Love Them...




Saturday, December 12, 2009

Were We DECEIVED......AGAIN??????????

JUST AFTER I READ THIS::

[TRANS] 091212 Masato Matsuura Mail to His Friendlist

I drink and drink, but I couldn’t get myself to sleep

Good morning. This is AVEX president Matsuura.
I woke up at 7:47 and by now had finished reading all the messages and comments.
I also thought to myself why it becomes like this,
Frankly, I think everyone must have been thinking “hey, stop fooling us”

If only I could, I really want to help you calming down even just a little bit

Looking back the past 5 years
Thinking of anything I’m able to do, I’ve been supporting them.
I did all of those, because I really like them

I will not forget the impression when I first met them
I remember I said to Lee Soo-man when they’re introduced to me, “I’m going to be their producer.”
They didn’t speak Japanese at all at the moment, so maybe they didn’t remember this.
However eventually, I started to be busy as a president
So rather than being their producer, I’m merely only backing them up

At the beginning of last year a-nation I made promise to them
“I promise that you’ll be performing at Music Station” although I’m not actually a qualified man to make such promise (T/N: since he doesn’t have any influence in MS)

The joy they showed to me, I will never forget that

Because I never can forget that, I started working like a dog doing all my best
So did the staffs

And when they had just appeared for the very first time, after the program
I still remember the words those five members told me at that time
They kept taking turns on the phone, thanking me
I can not forget that

Nevertheless, why…

My tears were also falling down and I couldn’t write anymore
This feeling which doesn’t have a place to convey should have been carried out somewhere…

However, it’s a self punishment for myself that it’s all because my incompetence

Matsuura Masato
masato max matsuura

PS. I might update my blog on the weekend, I’ll be grateful if you read it without thinking “This is such a poor person”.

……………………………….

Today’s messages is dedicated for fans of particular artist
If I write this on my blog, the media will pick it up to make some stories
That’s why I need to write it here.

Please forgive me.

© masato matsuura


source: masato matsuura mail
trans: sharingyoochun@wordpress

I SUDDENLY STRUCKED BY A LIGHTNING *not the real one i mean*

max matsuura nim... i love you i love you i love you........but you know what, suddenly i'm getting suspicious of this whole kind-loving-supportive-fans sided-ceo situation...there;s too much drama in this...dont you think so? somebody tell me its not....ouuuwh...here comes the hell premonition....

Friday, December 11, 2009

will there still be a chance for us to listen to them?

Just now i was watching their T tour dvd, the second half of the concert, and i dont know why, listening to kiss shitta mamma sayonara suddenly make me teary...
their vocal, their emotion and pure love cant be seen no matter where i turn to right now..
i really want to hear to it again...
the sound of five men, that went through hardship together just in the name of love and because of their dream, united into one most powerful touching voice...
i want to listen to it again
as a matter of fact, i believe, even they want to listen to their own voice again, not the voice that you'll hear as you speak, but a magical 5 voices that united into 1 heavenly love voice...the sound of dong bang shin ki, the sound of tohoshinki... that is the music that i want to hear the most right now
not the force happiness voice that they fake on stage, merely to make the fans joy, but their pure soul voice
is there any chance for all of us to listen to it again?
the path seems too dark
the burden seems too heavy
the road seems too rough
will they be able to walk through it
because they are alone right now
there are maybe 800 000 fans or even more shall i say will always be praying and cheering for them from far, but those are the only things that we can do
we can fight the war together with them
i'm afraid, that they might lose the battle
for i have a frail heart, that i might be unable to take it
dear god, please...mercy on them please...
for all the grace that you gave on me, how i dearly wish, i could give it to them
my dearest 5, the reason why i want to live meaningfully and reach for dream
please...save them....

Saturday, November 21, 2009

I've Lost IT Once, but I have IT Back Again!

ALWAYS KEEP THE FAITH!
For once I lost DA FAITH, but one simple unexpected knock brought me back to the ground,
and hellyeah, I'm back with DA FAITH.

TO ALL OF YA OUT THERE WHO'VE LOST DA FAITH,
COME TO ME,
LEMME BRAINWASH YOU!!

kiddin~~~
i mean it actually *smirk*

Saturday, September 26, 2009

Friday, September 25, 2009

[ICE] Reborn – is it good or bad?

Did i??
Turned into someone new??
Was it better?
Or did I actually turn into someone who is not me?

What was actually me?
Has it ever existed?
Did I lose it?
Where have I left it?
Or did I actually found me?
Is this me?
Tell me.
Please…

[ICE] If I Could Find You Now, Things Will Get Better – 120909

Anybody up for a guess?

Well…Allow me to make things simple by answering it myself

As the answer is simple, the one word that will drive people mad for no reason.

Whether you have it or you own loads of it, this single item is capable of turning world upside down. It hunters spread all over the world, doing things by all means just so that this evil thing will be in our hand. I believed all of you defo know what I am talking about, it definitely is all about that MR M.O.N.E.Y.

WHERE ARE YOU WHEN I NEED YOU!!

GET YOUR BIG FAT ASS BACK HERE DAMNIT!

[ICE] Into the New World - 010909

Finally the day that I have long waited comes. The day in which I will no longer be referred as Mazliana Abdul Rahman solely, but will soon be called as Miss Mazliana or ‘cikgu’ for the rest of my life.

‘For the Rest of My Life?’ I’m not sure about that yet, as I actually dream of a better life and I have my own dream occupation. What it is? Well, you may know it, you may not! For those whom I once told you about it, consider yourself to be among the luckiest people in the world. Kekekkekee…. Naaah… I might talk about it in the future, not now, since for the time being, the main issue is the new world that I’m about to enter, in approximately less than 8 hours (current time is 12.13 a.m).

From the north bull state of Semenanjung Malaysia, Perak, I moved to the most south state in Malaysia here in Johor to start my ‘adult journey’. It is now time to learn to take care of my own responsibilities well, building relationship not only with the kids that I will teach, but the school community and the people around.

I probably won’t face any problems with the kids ‘Wow!! Confident overloaded much?’ as that was what I was trained for the rest of my 6 long dragging dreadful and bitter sweet years with the 73 others that I’m proud of, but we weren’t taught on ways to mingle with ajumma and ajushi teachers. What more when they are my super duper sunbaes that might be jealous and dislike me due to the fact that I am young yet owned better qualification and wages compared to some of them. Haaaaih…Life is hard.

For all that know who Mazliana Abdul Rahman really is, not as ICE or blackelement_ar, they will never failed to tell you that I could have been the most emotionless and unapproachable person that they have met for the rest of their life. Though that is not my case for the whole 24 7, but yeaah…most of it. So, how in the fucking world am I going to be well accepted by the school? I mean, I know, as a new person, entering somebody else’s place, I ought to be polite, humble and sweet so that people will like me despite knowing the real ‘sombong’ me. Like the infamous quote that I don’t know whom it originated from, ‘masuk kandang kambing mengembek…masuk kandang lembu….mengmooo??’. So yeaaah…kita nak masuk tempat orang la katekan…kena la bersopan santun…takkan macam penjenayah pulak…ye tak…kalau tak karang, ade je yang kena rembat ngan penyapu lidi…. Because of that, I’ve decided that I will be using my ‘ICE’ personality here. That is the most possible way for me to survive. Lets show the benefit of me being apart of DBSK fandom. If you don’t know, I am DBSK obsessed fan ‘who DBSK is?? Google it babey.’ So, being their fan which I could say that I am quite an active person in their fandom world, I do join various gatherings, forums, and make friends with all types of people from allover part of the world. As ‘ICE’ I am a cheerful and happy fangirl that actually help me in making friends with many others. Guess tomorrow and for the rest of my teaching profession years, I shall be using that identity. Maybe later…don’t know when…I will slowly show the people who this mean cold icy Mazliana really is… bwaaahahahaa…be prepared for that tragic moment.

Holding on to that character, I will soon enter the teaching profession tomorrow. Hopefully I’ll be accepted well by the people and not to forget the pupils.

Also, I’m hopping that my lessons will go well, despite my current condition.

GOOD LUCK MAZLIANA! HWAITING!!

Saturday, August 22, 2009

[errrr] Tagged by bal

These are the rules:

1. Go to your photo files…Select the 6th photo folder.

2. Select the 6th photo in that folder.

3. Post that photo along with the story behind it.

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Gambar apekah?? The sixth folder...and the sixth picture... Mari kita lihat...siapa yang kena~~~~~~~

The 6th Folder is
DBSK!!

Actually it is changmin, but then the 5th folder is a song folder, mix with photo folder..wth...
so, have to skip the song folder, which make the 6th folder is DBSK folder..
sorry changminnie....

The 6th Photo is
(mestilah gamba DBSK, dah namenya pun folder DBSK)


DBSK in Tohoshinki mode
as What's In magazine cover
thats the story...
what else
the parquet floor is awesomely glossy, did they put olive oil on it??

NOW THE UNLUCKY 6 PERSON THAT I'M GONNA ARE ~~


Hanna
Hanyys
Azlan
Syaidatul Aizam
Rahah
Zaffira

[ICE] 20090815 Malaya University Convocation







After 6 long years of hardship struggles and mind-blowing experiences, me and 73 more friends finally graduated and received our most anticipate degree, with 54 'lulus memuaskan' candidates and 29 'lulus cemerlang' degree holder, and not to forget our most amazing Fatiha bt Senom as the sole holder of 'Anugerah di Raja' of the year, it won't be too much for me to say, we were and still are the greatest bach of the year. A bach of students that previously being invisible and not bothered by the faculty make it together.
HELL I AM PROUD TO BE APART OF
THE SECOND COHORT OF B.ED TESL 2003 IPIK/UM INTAKE



Friday, August 14, 2009

[EVENT] TOHOSHINKI Stand by U Oricon Project


Hello Fellow Cassies and Bigeast

As TVXQ is going through hard time right now, a community to unite international fans from all over the world had been created, known as TVXQSUPPORT, to show our love and support to TVXQ.

Korean Cassies latest project in showing support towards TVXQ is through boycotting SM.ent releases and they are right now collecting fund for newspapers advertisement.

As for International Fans, the current project is to make Stand by U make it at least to the Top 10 of Oricon Daily / Weekly.

Due to that, we are calling all of you to join this project.

The single CD buy date is:

Sunday, August 16th
(Japan Time)


YOU MUST BUY FROM EITHER HMVJAPAN OR CDJAPAN ONLY!!!

You may be asking, why Sunday?
It takes two day for online orders to process, so it will take until Tuesday for all the orders to go through to the Oricon.

TVXQSUPPORT - Always Keep the Faith Community

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

[EVENT] Boycott SM Releases

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A/N :

to some of you, this act might be too much, as this will not only
affect SM, but other singers, models, staffs and workers
under SM... but this is a temporary act, planned to show to SM
about buyers strength. Because when we talked about SM,
money is definitely their greatest interest & priority... Thus we
need to show to SM that as customers and buyers that had been
loyal to them for all this while, we have our right, especially when
it comes to the products *DBSK releases* that we love the most.

not to worry much about this act impact to DBSK year end sale
and all, this act is not planned to be carried out for the rest of
the year, maybe till the next hearing, which is 21 August. Lets
together give SM the taste of their own medicine.

however this boycott does not apply to DBSK Avex releases, so
feel free to buy their japanese products.

we need to show to SM, how much power we have. SM generally
know DBSK has the biggest followers compared to all SM artist,
as a matter of fact in Asia, but they never really see our real
power. They asked for it, so lets show it.

everyone is your own free will, whether to join the boycott or
not, but I will.

will be updating you with more info, once we received it
from korean cassies.

Lets Keep The Faith!!!

[ICE] i NEed tHE FUcKIng VoiCe BacK

this is all big bullshit
i need my voice back
life is hard enuff for me, and why cant it just be a lil easier
trust me, when you dont have you voice
you'll be living like shit!!!
like when u speak no one hear you
and people start saying that you are rude coz you dont respond to them
and when you are angry, not in the mood, depress...you cant show it...they just cant hear it
becoz THEY CANT HEAR THE FUCKING EMOTION FROM YOU?
WHY??
WHY??
YOU ASKING ME WHY??
BECOZ I'M DAMN MUTE YOU BITCH!!!
just becoz they cant hear you, they call you rude for not replying...was i really not replying
they told you, that you are emotionless coz you dont reply to them...you dont care bout them
was it really??
WAS IT REALLY?????
HELL NO!!!
the reason is simply becoz you dont hear it..
YOU DONT HEAR ME!!!!
GET OFF FROM ME!!
SICK OF THIS!!!!

Monday, August 10, 2009

[ICE] tIRed oF beINg Me

when i'm sad,i didnt show it,

when i'm depressed, i hide it,

when i'm scared,i pretend that i'm not,

when i'm worried,i faked that i'm fine,

when i get lonely,i danced it away,

when i'm angry,i laughed it out loud,

pretentious?

yeah, maybe i should stop it,

even becoz i hide it,fake it,dont show it,

doesnt mean that i am ignorance and have no feelings,

dont judge me,

we may live together 24 7,

but we actually are strangers to each others' heart.

0833/20090810

Sunday, August 9, 2009

[ICE] ...


with great POWER, comes great EVIL

Thursday, August 6, 2009

[EVENT] Stand by U video project

To all Malaysian Cassiopeia,

After a few hours of discussion, we have decided to do this “Stand By U” video messages project. Let the boys knew that we will always support them from behind, protect them even though we’re far away from them.

We are very sure that all of you already watched the messages video that DNBN posted in their website, Soompi as well as Youtube. Right after the Korean Cassiopeia from DNBN did this project… It was followed by International Cassiopeia in Soompi and then Bigeast from Japan…. By doin’ this project, we eventually joins the rest of the Korean Cassiopeia, Bigeast and International Cassiopeia…. After the video is done, we will be spreading it out to all forums, website….

What you guys need to do are :

1. Write a simple message that you wanna tell the boys on a piece of a paper. (It can be just a LETTER or a SIMPLE NOTE as long as they can read your messages.. Try to be as simple and meaningful your letter or note….)

2. Take a clear picture of the message you have written on that piece of paper.


3. Send the picture (.jpg) to this email : dbskforever@live.com.my

4. All messages should be written either in Korean, English and Japanese only.

5. The dateline to submit in will be 8th August 2009 (saturday) at 6.00pm (Malaysia time)


Since this is an urgent project we need your full cooperation….. 감사합니다 (Thank you)...


Always Keep The Faith…!!!

Friday, July 31, 2009

[ICE] hOPe

Never go gloomy, man with a mind,
Hope is a better companion than fear;
Providence, ever benignant and kind,
Gives with a smile what you take with a tear;
All will be right,
Look to the light.
Morning was ever the daughter of night;
All that was black will be all that is bright,
Cheerily, cheerily, then cheer up.

Many a foe is a friend in disguise,
Many a trouble a blessing most true,
Helping the heart to be happy and wise,
With love ever precious and joys ever new.
Stand in the van,
Strike like a man!
This is the bravest and cleverest plan;
Trusting in God while you do what you can.
Cheerily, cheerily, then cheer up.

Author Unknown

star of bethlehem

Thursday, July 30, 2009

[INTEREST] DBSK Members Solo Activities

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For the next half of 2009, DBSK members will be focusing more on their solo activities rather than group activities.

This news had stirred various feedback from fans and their followers.
Some of them were anxious if this could be the spark towards the 'disbanding rumour' that once was a hit among the fans.
A few were scared if they turned into the second *coughshinhwacough*.

Yet, mostly were excited as this could be a chance for DBSK to showcase their personal talents, in proving to others that they have more than just good looks, sexy dancing skills and spectacular vocal.
It is also said, that the solo activities could help DBSK to break from their normal group activities routine, which might appear as a form of relaxation for the five.

As in my opinion, the solo activities won't actually spread or loosen the group relation, but tighten it because the separation might make the members miss each other more and they will start to appreciate the group more, hence making the bond stronger than ever.

1) Micky Yoochun & Youngwoong Jaejoong
COLORS; Melody & Harmony singles

2) Youngwoong Jaejoong
Heaven Postman short drama

3) U-Know Yunho
Heading to the Ground drama

4) Choikang Changmin
Paradise Meadow drama

5) Xiah Junsu
*yet to be confirmed*

source :: soompi

[ICE] hAvE YoU EveR MIsSEd YouRSeLf??

mazliana boggoshipda~~~

since i went through the thyroid operation last june, i've been facing this so called temporarily mute condition...though i might not be totally mute, though i can speak with others, as long as they pay attention to me, willing to wait for me to utter my whole sentence that i might need to break into 4 short phrases as it consumed a lot of my energy and breath to speak like normal people, as long as others can stay quite for awhile just so that they can hear what i want to say, then we will be communicating
but you, i, won't be listening to me... it feels like its not me... this is not me... this is not my voice...i am trapped inside my body. my voice stuck at the end of my tongue thus my throat had to push someone else to speak it on behalf of me. there's another person inside of me, the one that has been speaking on behalf of me for all this while before i get myself back. thats the voice that you'll be hearing

where did i left me?? on the operation bed?? inside the operation room?? at the hospital ward???
i lost me. i miss my voice. i miss me.
the me that love my own voice.
the me that love to sing even if it is just to myself

mazliana
please
i beg you
come back~~~~~~

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

[ICE] FaLSe HopE


when i'm not hopping, people gave me hope, but when i started to hope, the hope gone. now tell me, can i break down? coz i really feel like going to~~~

Saturday, July 18, 2009

[ICE] Binge- proof your diet: 6 FoODs ThAt kEEp U FuLL & SaTisFiED

by Liz Vaccariello, June 2009

The big, fat (pun intended) irony about trying to drop pounds is that cutting calories has a pesky habit of making you eat more, and more of the wrong types of foods. Think about the last time you nibbled a plain green salad for lunch. How did you feel by 6 pm? Ready to eat an entire anything and then have seconds? Hunger is a real, physical need you can’t overcome with willpower alone. So eat already—and stock up on these foods, which will keep you satiated for hours: Fill up with fiber!


1) Eggs: They’re a great source of hunger-quelling protein (about 6 g per egg), plus a recent study found that women following a low-fat diet who ate 2 eggs for breakfast at least 5 days a week lost 65% more weight and averaged an 83% greater reduction in waist circumference. Not a fan? Low-fat yogurt is a great source of (breakfast-happy) protein.


2) Almonds: These tasty nuts contain the healthy monounsaturated fatty acids, good-for-you fats that keep your appetite sated for hours. Studies back this up—one found that after 6 months, dieters whose eating plan included almonds lost 63% more weight, lost 50% more body fat, and shrunk their waistlines 55% more than those on a high-carb diet. They’re not exactly calorie free, so watch portions (1 ounce—or 28 nuts—is about 170 calories).


3) Avocados: How do I love these? In many many ways, but a few slices with a little lime juice is rich, satisfying, and loaded with so many important nutrients, including those healthy monounsaturated fats, plus vitamins and minerals like potassium and folate. No, they’re not calorie free, but a few slices have between 50 and 75 calories and will make any salad or sandwich SO much more satisfying (you can even throw avocado in a smoothie, which is common in Thai food).




4) Apples: I’m going to resist the urge to write anything about absentee doctors and regular apple consumption, but needless to say, eating one or two of these crunchy, portable fruits really can benefit your waistline: One study found that subjects who ate one apple before every meal lost 40% more weight than those who didn’t. Plus, they’re low in calories—about 65 for one that’s medium-size.


5) Oatmeal: This is the food weight loss dreams are made of. It contains high amounts of soluble fiber, which slows digestion and keeps you full for hours, and one study found that subjects who ate oatmeal for breakfast every day and also walked an average of 15 to 30 minutes daily lost about 10 pounds in 12 weeks.


6) Peanut butter:
Despite the name, peanuts are actually a legume, not a nut, but they’re still high in those craving-quashing monounsaturated fats, and research has found that dieters who snack on peanuts or peanut butter lose more weight than those who don’t. My advice is to stick with the natural kind because it’s lower in added sugars—and spread some on those apple slices next time you get the 4 pm munchies.

Monday, July 6, 2009

[INTEREST] TOHOSHINKI TOKYO DOME GLORY - The Secret Code Japan Tour

If i was there, i'll rip that off and run away with it...
that will make a lovely wallpaper for my room
everyday spending my time molesting it..
hahahahaha


Tokyo Dome was the boys dream
that turned into our dream too and now the dream became reality
but the sad thing is that i am not apart of it

Red sea that filled Dome for 2 historical nights
4th and 5th of July
will definitely be a must remember date
for all of us


A surprise event planned by fans on the 5th
when the red ocean that has been supporting and loving them for all these years
turned into blue ocean

as the boys sang Stand by U fans carefully listened and waved together
creating beautiful blue waves
for everyone to remember

The light sticks of the night

Below are pictures captured through out the two nights
I found my collections lacked of Changmin
Anyone with his pics, feel free to share with me



With that
the whole Japan tour has ended
and now they are heading back to Korea
while preparing for the continuation of Mirotic Asia tour
with Beijing and Shanghai as the next destination

picture credit : as tagged
words are mine