[ICE] faking life

yesterday....as soon as i woke uo from my sleep..i have diz...donnoe how to explain...
u noe ...some days...some times...we just feel...everything is wrong...everything is dissapointing ...no trace of light or any drops of laughters
and if possible...
if this life just like all those electric appliances..or maybe this laptop...i'll definitely shut it down...take the cabel of the plug...take the charger away from laptop...

foy one moment...i wish...i sould go away....far away....where no one knows me...
i just cant take it anymore...cant go through it...
i'm not blaming anyone...its me...
me and myself....
i dont want to affect others...for i love my friends....and they are the only friends that i have in this world..

but i am scared i mite

i wanna go back..

go back to my hometown...spending times with my family....like the old days...when nothing seems to trouble...
i dont want to have any relations with all the things in the world...

leaving to a far away land...

where i can spend my time with my family...and my dearest friends....
away
away from the reality....
but how sure i am that my friends and families will be following me..

to the calm yet meaningless land

becoz all this experiences that make us human...

that is what called as living

for all this time

i pretend to be happy with the life that i lived in....pretend that i dont mind...pretend that its ok

acting...its all acting...pretending...fake...
but aint that what all of us do everyday everytime we live of life in this world??

aaaaah...maybe not...maybe its me...alone...
i shudnt be here....this is sooo wrong...