i am sick

at this moment, all i need is just a calm rest..
i feel like going to the beach...
laying down somewhere which is not cold.. because apparently now i have cough and flue and sore throat, so a cold place wont help me..
listening to the sound of the wave hitting the beach...
looking at the sun set
i need time to think about myself
not necessarily a long holiday, especially right now i just came back from hometown after a one week chinese new year holiday. however that one week doesnt seem to calm and chill me..
i need someone that i can call or hold
and tell i am sick
and he'll tell me i'll be fine soon

outdated me

there were a lot of time when i feel totally down.
 i feel ugly, fat, unfeminine, awkward and unwanted.
 i'm outdated and not pretty.
 i am not born fashionable and i dont dare to try something new.
 whenever i tried out new thing, it end up weird and ugly.
 thats me. i am born to be outdated.