at this moment, all i need is just a calm rest..
i feel like going to the beach...
laying down somewhere which is not cold.. because apparently now i have cough and flue and sore throat, so a cold place wont help me..
listening to the sound of the wave hitting the beach...
looking at the sun set
i need time to think about myself
not necessarily a long holiday, especially right now i just came back from hometown after a one week chinese new year holiday. however that one week doesnt seem to calm and chill me..
i need someone that i can call or hold
and tell i am sick
and he'll tell me i'll be fine soon
Sunday, February 17, 2013
Sunday, February 3, 2013
outdated me
there were a lot of time when i feel totally down.
i feel ugly, fat, unfeminine, awkward and unwanted.
i'm outdated and not pretty.
i am not born fashionable and i dont dare to try something new.
whenever i tried out new thing, it end up weird and ugly.
thats me. i am born to be outdated.
i feel ugly, fat, unfeminine, awkward and unwanted.
i'm outdated and not pretty.
i am not born fashionable and i dont dare to try something new.
whenever i tried out new thing, it end up weird and ugly.
thats me. i am born to be outdated.
Wednesday, January 30, 2013
she who is afraid of love
the feeling of being love and having someone to think of, to look for
is such a beautiful feeling.
the feeling which is exclusive yet isnt hard to find
it exist in the touch of the sun, the warm feeling of glowing heat like the times when you are cold, stepping out of a room searching for some light and the sun hugs with tender warmth, makes you feel loved and cared.
the feeling of you feet waling on the soft grass, after a long tiring day of pacing here and there, in high heels, plastering pretty fake smiles on your face, enduring all the pain and agonizing desire to take the shoes off, right at the moment when your feet stepped on the weak green grass, it brings you relief and clear your clustered mind, thus you believe love is still there.
or maybe after a fiery argument and talks during a meeting, where people just say what they wanted to say, what ever crossed their mind, with one thought and believe that it is being professional and honest is the best thing, never once that they tried to think of the people who heard it and felt it, stepping out of the room, standing at the balcony, and you open your hand as wide as you can, inhaling the air into your lung, hoping to find some reason to view the world in much prettier way.
however all these feeling, they are temporary.
that lovely feeling is often too short.
that you may afraid, the moment it stop, the reality truth could be painful.
is such a beautiful feeling.
the feeling which is exclusive yet isnt hard to find
it exist in the touch of the sun, the warm feeling of glowing heat like the times when you are cold, stepping out of a room searching for some light and the sun hugs with tender warmth, makes you feel loved and cared.
the feeling of you feet waling on the soft grass, after a long tiring day of pacing here and there, in high heels, plastering pretty fake smiles on your face, enduring all the pain and agonizing desire to take the shoes off, right at the moment when your feet stepped on the weak green grass, it brings you relief and clear your clustered mind, thus you believe love is still there.
or maybe after a fiery argument and talks during a meeting, where people just say what they wanted to say, what ever crossed their mind, with one thought and believe that it is being professional and honest is the best thing, never once that they tried to think of the people who heard it and felt it, stepping out of the room, standing at the balcony, and you open your hand as wide as you can, inhaling the air into your lung, hoping to find some reason to view the world in much prettier way.
however all these feeling, they are temporary.
that lovely feeling is often too short.
that you may afraid, the moment it stop, the reality truth could be painful.
Monday, January 21, 2013
windows to the world
i've been monitoring my friends posts on facebook for quite sometimes
those who have been furthering their study in the university, either to do a master or phd level
these people, are my source of jealousy
based on their posts on facebook, i can see that their way of thinking, their words, their thoughts and talks are totally different than me who is living at school, facing little kids everyday in my life
i know nothing much about the world out there
my life lingers around the children, things to be taught at school, things related to school administration, school and district education programs and a little here and there on what happened in malaysia education systems.
i know nothing much about other than the education field
my mind slowly grows narrower
as if there is an invincible board at the side of my head, both left and right. it keeps my view straight to the front. i can hear a lot of things happened both my left and right side, but the board stops me from looking
if i turned my head to the left, then all i see are the lefts. if i turned my head to the right, all i see are the rights.
i want to be able to see the world as a whole
limitless. borderless. unbinded.
will i too, be able to see the world it a wider broader way
to travel the course
to join the adventure
to explore the tides
and be wiser by days
Wednesday, January 2, 2013
new day, new beginning. its 2013
2nd january 2013, wednesday.
i wish this year i can be a better teacher, for all my kids.
this year i am teaching year 3 Minat, 5 Minat and 6 Minat.
all the good classes.
i have no worries with year 5 and 6 despite the fact i never taught them previously, but my year 3, i am afraid the basic that i provide them isnt sufficient enough.
i will work hard, for them.
today's sweat i tomorrow's fruit.
may my wish and your wish come true.
i wish this year i can be a better teacher, for all my kids.
this year i am teaching year 3 Minat, 5 Minat and 6 Minat.
all the good classes.
i have no worries with year 5 and 6 despite the fact i never taught them previously, but my year 3, i am afraid the basic that i provide them isnt sufficient enough.
i will work hard, for them.
today's sweat i tomorrow's fruit.
may my wish and your wish come true.
Thursday, December 20, 2012
importing english teachers FROM INDIA?? eh?
tried to be optimistic... attempt failed!
so if the current status of local english teachers in malaysia did not match the demand, hence why all those english teachers brought in were only used as mentors. why dont we use them as the teaching team itself? and wait, from india? eh?
but then seriously people, we are out of english teachers?? then what about those undergoing training at the colleges and universities... my lack of knowledge brain failed to digest this.
my very own beloved malaysia is sometimes too hard to be understood. yes i guess the government and ministry of education people have their own valid reasons for the betterment and future of malaysian nation. we, as the citizens of the country itself at times feel neglected and cornered by our own people. if the quality of the teachers are the main issues, thus change the curriculum and assessment techniques used in training the teachers. intead of bringing in some westerners into our own country to become the mentors for the teachers, simply sitting at the back of the class, observing and watching us teachers teaching and carrying out our lessons wont improve much.
so if the current status of local english teachers in malaysia did not match the demand, hence why all those english teachers brought in were only used as mentors. why dont we use them as the teaching team itself? and wait, from india? eh?
but then seriously people, we are out of english teachers?? then what about those undergoing training at the colleges and universities... my lack of knowledge brain failed to digest this.
my very own beloved malaysia is sometimes too hard to be understood. yes i guess the government and ministry of education people have their own valid reasons for the betterment and future of malaysian nation. we, as the citizens of the country itself at times feel neglected and cornered by our own people. if the quality of the teachers are the main issues, thus change the curriculum and assessment techniques used in training the teachers. intead of bringing in some westerners into our own country to become the mentors for the teachers, simply sitting at the back of the class, observing and watching us teachers teaching and carrying out our lessons wont improve much.
Thursday, November 15, 2012
he is here, there and everywhere
well.. i'm not talking about Justin Beiber or Psy..
*may God please protect me from making an entry related to them* amiiiiiiiiin
well i'm talking about my school administration people...
those higher ranking people.. starting from our new Headmaster and Senior Assistant Teachers ..
there is one of these 3 SATs, got himself involved in almost all areas... there were times when i saw himself being confused with his own role..thinking that he may actually be THE BOSS of the school.. when he actually isnt!!
there werent one event when he got himself in and took over other people's position...
THERE WERE A LOT!!! gooosh.. sometimes, this little raking me have the urge of saying..
WILL YOU PLEASE SHUT THE F*** OFF AND GO AWAY!
THIS ISNT YOUR PLACE TO CHIP IN!
*enough rant*
*may God please protect me from making an entry related to them* amiiiiiiiiin
well i'm talking about my school administration people...
those higher ranking people.. starting from our new Headmaster and Senior Assistant Teachers ..
there is one of these 3 SATs, got himself involved in almost all areas... there were times when i saw himself being confused with his own role..thinking that he may actually be THE BOSS of the school.. when he actually isnt!!
there werent one event when he got himself in and took over other people's position...
THERE WERE A LOT!!! gooosh.. sometimes, this little raking me have the urge of saying..
WILL YOU PLEASE SHUT THE F*** OFF AND GO AWAY!
THIS ISNT YOUR PLACE TO CHIP IN!
*enough rant*
Tuesday, June 26, 2012
so you call that having a phone??
aku memangla jenis yang rasa nak lempang orang gini... stock stock yang telipon canggih len bagai...
tapi telipon canggih derang ni, tak boleh terima mesej ngan call kot... tu pasal kalau mesej, tak tau balas, call tak reti angkat...
kalau hal suka suki tu laju sangat kan... bila mende pendting boleh la seme tak dapat itu ini...
kang ade je yang aku amik telipon tu, aku letak jalan tar... aku lenyek ngan tayar kete je kang... telipon canggih ko tu, buat serf tenet ngan tangkap gambo, ngan main game... tu je kan fungsinya!
tapi telipon canggih derang ni, tak boleh terima mesej ngan call kot... tu pasal kalau mesej, tak tau balas, call tak reti angkat...
kalau hal suka suki tu laju sangat kan... bila mende pendting boleh la seme tak dapat itu ini...
kang ade je yang aku amik telipon tu, aku letak jalan tar... aku lenyek ngan tayar kete je kang... telipon canggih ko tu, buat serf tenet ngan tangkap gambo, ngan main game... tu je kan fungsinya!
Wednesday, June 13, 2012
random rant of my worries
lets go straight to the point... i have no intention of going around the bush and talking something unrelated to this...
today was the third day of the second term of 2012 school session... and yes i am still having a hard time to gather my spirit and commitment to continue *well since when did i really have it?*
i was on my ALMOST 2 weeks holiday starting last 30th Mei till 9th June. definitely that almost 2 weeks holiday was something that all teachers been waiting for after months of working our ass of trying to make sure the kids get at least a passing gred for all subjects. YES we worked our ass to make sure they get passing gred and A.. not much of real education... because real education wont pretty much help the kids to further their study to a better high school. haunted by the upper department people, either the one in the school itself, or the district people, also the state people. each time they came, what they wanted are greds! they wont bother whether the kids really are able to apply it, use it and benefit what they learned. ITS GRED TALKING! NOTHING ELSE.
well working on gred trust me is not an easy task to do. because most of the kids know and understand what we taught them, and able to respond to our questions and solve task given, yet they found it very problematic and troublesome when they were asked to pour it out on a piece of paper.
many of teachers found it really weird why this situation happened and it often frustrate us, because we know our kids and we know they are smart, clever or maybe good enough, but their greds were showing the other way round.
thus, we hesitantly not, carried out various extra classes and workshops in order to share with the kids all available answering methods. it is free for the kids to pick which way they feel comfortable with and easy to work with. after school, night, weekend even public holidays. but the amount of effort put didnt always give the expected impact. go and ask any hospital, clinic, you may get answer from the doctors and staffs, that most high blood pressure and heart problem are teachers. well guess why? we are always worried. about our kids education, performance and future. tell me how wont us worry when they are already at the age of 12, but still having problem in writing and reading. right now i'm at the age in which i see all the kids as my brothers and sisters, because i do have brother at their age. as much as i am worried about my youngest brother performance, i am worried about my kids too. i saw how much hope my parents have on him, thus i believe those kids' parents too have a high hope on their kids. but tell me what to do. all i wanna do is making sure that the kids gt good result, as we all know, *if you are a parent* whenever your kids show you their good result, it will be one of a great moment. we want to give you that feeling, the feeling that you know your kids are doing well and you have a great son / daughter. because of that, we often frustrated with the end result.
having all these to worry and work on, my 2 weeks relaxing holiday was totally disturbed when my mother kind of pushing me to find a guy to marry with. i understand, it is not her fault entirely. i am already at the age in which i am supposed to have my own family now. and my parents are at the age when they are supposed to see some lil kids running around... *not belong to them, but mine*. my father is someone who others know, thus because of that, may people will be asking when he'll be a father in law and all... same goes to my mom... they must be stressed because of it too...
now.... how....
i am just fine now... not that i dont want someone to love... but so far i havent met one that i love
today was the third day of the second term of 2012 school session... and yes i am still having a hard time to gather my spirit and commitment to continue *well since when did i really have it?*
i was on my ALMOST 2 weeks holiday starting last 30th Mei till 9th June. definitely that almost 2 weeks holiday was something that all teachers been waiting for after months of working our ass of trying to make sure the kids get at least a passing gred for all subjects. YES we worked our ass to make sure they get passing gred and A.. not much of real education... because real education wont pretty much help the kids to further their study to a better high school. haunted by the upper department people, either the one in the school itself, or the district people, also the state people. each time they came, what they wanted are greds! they wont bother whether the kids really are able to apply it, use it and benefit what they learned. ITS GRED TALKING! NOTHING ELSE.
well working on gred trust me is not an easy task to do. because most of the kids know and understand what we taught them, and able to respond to our questions and solve task given, yet they found it very problematic and troublesome when they were asked to pour it out on a piece of paper.
many of teachers found it really weird why this situation happened and it often frustrate us, because we know our kids and we know they are smart, clever or maybe good enough, but their greds were showing the other way round.
thus, we hesitantly not, carried out various extra classes and workshops in order to share with the kids all available answering methods. it is free for the kids to pick which way they feel comfortable with and easy to work with. after school, night, weekend even public holidays. but the amount of effort put didnt always give the expected impact. go and ask any hospital, clinic, you may get answer from the doctors and staffs, that most high blood pressure and heart problem are teachers. well guess why? we are always worried. about our kids education, performance and future. tell me how wont us worry when they are already at the age of 12, but still having problem in writing and reading. right now i'm at the age in which i see all the kids as my brothers and sisters, because i do have brother at their age. as much as i am worried about my youngest brother performance, i am worried about my kids too. i saw how much hope my parents have on him, thus i believe those kids' parents too have a high hope on their kids. but tell me what to do. all i wanna do is making sure that the kids gt good result, as we all know, *if you are a parent* whenever your kids show you their good result, it will be one of a great moment. we want to give you that feeling, the feeling that you know your kids are doing well and you have a great son / daughter. because of that, we often frustrated with the end result.
having all these to worry and work on, my 2 weeks relaxing holiday was totally disturbed when my mother kind of pushing me to find a guy to marry with. i understand, it is not her fault entirely. i am already at the age in which i am supposed to have my own family now. and my parents are at the age when they are supposed to see some lil kids running around... *not belong to them, but mine*. my father is someone who others know, thus because of that, may people will be asking when he'll be a father in law and all... same goes to my mom... they must be stressed because of it too...
now.... how....
i am just fine now... not that i dont want someone to love... but so far i havent met one that i love
Sunday, June 3, 2012
kpop fans life in malaysia
everyday, the leader of my country screamed to the people how we all should get united, as unity is the main force to overcome any things ever coming towards us, and unity is the main strength that will move us forward..
just like jessie j song lyrics,
'we need to take it back in time,
when music make us all unite'
and here one thing that i saw able to unite many of teenagers and young generations is being pushed away by some possibilities of negative impact it may bring...
Malaysia is a multiracial country, with various languages, religions and ways of living.. we fought and argued with each others in order to hold up our believe, but out of all these issues, there is one thing that uniting many of us, although i wont be saying it applicable to everyone...its music.... and what i would be referring to is kpop... kpop bring malays, chinese, indians all together.. and this one thing that bring us together is now facing many objections from many..
for instance, political views and believe... we may not agree on the same thing, and by the time of the election, we would be able to see various post and cynical statuses being updated on facebook and twitter... trying to point at each others.. and yes we do respond and argued with others in silent, by posting statuses without clearly referring to the certain people... but hey.. we know each others, and obviously know, who those post meant to... but do we end up hating each other??
NO! and guess what brought us back together.. its kpop music...
try yourself, push away all your prejudice and negative view, for once, spend your time at any concert or gathering with many other kpop fandoms, and you'll see how how beautiful it is... despite the screaming and fangirling moment which you may not understand it... you'll see when we like the same thing, share the same interest... we just dont bother who they are... its just us and the music..
i will not be denying how kpop does bring negative impact towards our malaysian teenagers.. as there are negative impacts, which i dont have to list down, because i bet you all know it very well... but in everything exist in this world, it comes with two sides.. the good and the bad, let us all together count in the good thing... we are not stupid to plainly follow the negative thing...
besides, music from other countries do have negative impacts too, so why kpop is your main target now!
just like jessie j song lyrics,
'we need to take it back in time,
when music make us all unite'
and here one thing that i saw able to unite many of teenagers and young generations is being pushed away by some possibilities of negative impact it may bring...
Malaysia is a multiracial country, with various languages, religions and ways of living.. we fought and argued with each others in order to hold up our believe, but out of all these issues, there is one thing that uniting many of us, although i wont be saying it applicable to everyone...its music.... and what i would be referring to is kpop... kpop bring malays, chinese, indians all together.. and this one thing that bring us together is now facing many objections from many..
for instance, political views and believe... we may not agree on the same thing, and by the time of the election, we would be able to see various post and cynical statuses being updated on facebook and twitter... trying to point at each others.. and yes we do respond and argued with others in silent, by posting statuses without clearly referring to the certain people... but hey.. we know each others, and obviously know, who those post meant to... but do we end up hating each other??
NO! and guess what brought us back together.. its kpop music...
try yourself, push away all your prejudice and negative view, for once, spend your time at any concert or gathering with many other kpop fandoms, and you'll see how how beautiful it is... despite the screaming and fangirling moment which you may not understand it... you'll see when we like the same thing, share the same interest... we just dont bother who they are... its just us and the music..
i will not be denying how kpop does bring negative impact towards our malaysian teenagers.. as there are negative impacts, which i dont have to list down, because i bet you all know it very well... but in everything exist in this world, it comes with two sides.. the good and the bad, let us all together count in the good thing... we are not stupid to plainly follow the negative thing...
besides, music from other countries do have negative impacts too, so why kpop is your main target now!
Saturday, June 2, 2012
sometimes i wish
woke up this morning with a slight daze and confusion, i wish that i am no longer me, who is sleeping here, waking up to that, and will be going back to those thing.
i wish i am someone who works with the palace.. heheheeee... stupid wish isnt it?
i can still be me, that i am still an educator, teaching english, as english is still my passion, so why cant i teach the royal kids? the little young prince and princess.... dealing with some spoil kids.. hehehehee...
then, while working there, i'll met someone..my prince charming... may not necessarily be the royal prince himself, but the prince that i think is a prince...of my heart... as charming as eun shi kyung...
OKAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY.. thats it! my real wish is to meet someone like un shi kyung.. if you get it..
kekekkee.. this delusional me.. when will i ever grow up and live in the real world...
i wish i am someone who works with the palace.. heheheeee... stupid wish isnt it?
i can still be me, that i am still an educator, teaching english, as english is still my passion, so why cant i teach the royal kids? the little young prince and princess.... dealing with some spoil kids.. hehehehee...
then, while working there, i'll met someone..my prince charming... may not necessarily be the royal prince himself, but the prince that i think is a prince...of my heart... as charming as eun shi kyung...
OKAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY.. thats it! my real wish is to meet someone like un shi kyung.. if you get it..
kekekkee.. this delusional me.. when will i ever grow up and live in the real world...
Friday, June 1, 2012
currently obssessing over Lee Seung Gi
all thanks to King 2 Hearts that makes me fall in love with his charismatic king character.. Lee Seung Gi.. i think you should really be a king.. wang saeja... kekekek.... you have that stand... and make me your wangbi mama please............. heheheh
The King 2 Hearts drama
done watching The King 2Hearts.... i guessed its korean drama latest
trend... they wont have a 100% happy ending for the characters.... all
the same in Rooftop Prince, and Fashion King too...
watching K2H makes me wonder.... does our King face that kind of issues and problems too?? leading a nation is definitely not an easy task....
watching K2H makes me wonder.... does our King face that kind of issues and problems too?? leading a nation is definitely not an easy task....
Tuesday, May 8, 2012
how long will continue with this
6.25 am - wake up
6.57 am - drive to school
7.10 am - arrive at school
7.20 am - school session starts
1.10 pm - school session end
1.30 pm - 4.30 pm - possibilities for meeting, discussions and courses
5.00 pm - evening nap
6.30 pm - wake up
8.00 pm - 11.00 pm - sit at the living room, with laptop, and writing RPH
11.30 pm - iron baju kurung
12.30 pm - sleep
EVERYDAY..................................................................... the whole routine will be repeated 5 or 6 days a week
6.57 am - drive to school
7.10 am - arrive at school
7.20 am - school session starts
1.10 pm - school session end
1.30 pm - 4.30 pm - possibilities for meeting, discussions and courses
5.00 pm - evening nap
6.30 pm - wake up
8.00 pm - 11.00 pm - sit at the living room, with laptop, and writing RPH
11.30 pm - iron baju kurung
12.30 pm - sleep
EVERYDAY..................................................................... the whole routine will be repeated 5 or 6 days a week
Tuesday, April 17, 2012
do you hate me??
its been quite long since the previous entry... well if there is anyone reading this, well i bet there isn't which i kinda like it too, because it makes me free to express myself here, without being restricted, for your information, i am no diligent blog writer. i write whenever i feel like i want to, and whatever i think at that particular moment.as for now, i suddenly feel like writing an entry due to yesterday incident. fist allow me to explain, that i am a newbie educator.. that's what people in my field love to call ourselves.. we aint teacher. we come to school everyday to educate youngsters, and not to teach, although yeaah somehow reflecting back on NKRA and related stuff which requires us to produce kids with good greds and not kids who holistically developed, then we teach!
after almost 4 years of undergoing the true reality of malaysian education scenario, i finally start to change into a no longer yes mam, i'll do it, and nod nod type of person, to a hey you, please, i dont think that's my work to do.
when we carried our P & P, which is actually mean Pembelajaran dan Pengajaran, we teachers often nagged and even scolded the kids when we found out that they didnt pay attention to us. but then, didnt we learned it during our university times, that kids have really short attention span? yet we forced them to sit all day long, listening to us talk talk and talk and expect them to absorb it all? because they are kids, then we should be able to understand their nature of easily deteriorating interest towards lesson, thus teachers are encouraged to include games, quizzes, crafts and some other cross curricular activities throughout the lesson. so that the pupils won't despise the sight of us entering the class, knowing it will be a long dragging hours of boring stuff.
i somehow think, that i am an attention seeker, or even desperado, because i am worried if my kids dont like me. i'll try my best to please them throughout my lesson. hating me will somehow makes them hate the subject i taught. hating the subject means dieeeeeeeeee....
then again, what if adults unable to give their focus and attention during important discussion or talk? okay lets make it straight to the point. TEACHERS! what if teachers unable to listen well and grab the main gist of a discussion. then it means you'll start asking questions for thing you should very well known thus irritating others. and this, seriously kill me.
its like a doctor went to a clinic and asked to the others what he should do.
that kind of thing... dont you just feel like strangling them to death? and just because of that, i generously 'sound' a senior teacher yesterday during a meeting. A VERY SENIOR AND EXTRA SENSITIVE TEACHER.
now, DO YOU HATE ME??
.........do i even give a shit.......
Thursday, March 29, 2012
bahasa bunga bunga guy? yes and no!
romantic guy? yes if he express himself to me.. secretly to me.. not for anyone else..in public?? just help me by not doing it... i'll die there and then!
guy with flowery decorative cherry on top type of talking, again! NOOOOOOOOOOO!
*runaway as far as i can*
just when i responded to someone on why this person felt down, and that person replied to me with all this wiseman talk, seriously kill me!
and thus i made a status on facebook how the respond literally scared the shit out of me *without making it obvious that i was talking about it*, and the person 'like' my status and being all concern...
a.w.k.w.a.r.d...............................
guy with flowery decorative cherry on top type of talking, again! NOOOOOOOOOOO!
*runaway as far as i can*
just when i responded to someone on why this person felt down, and that person replied to me with all this wiseman talk, seriously kill me!
and thus i made a status on facebook how the respond literally scared the shit out of me *without making it obvious that i was talking about it*, and the person 'like' my status and being all concern...
a.w.k.w.a.r.d...............................
Friday, March 16, 2012
Thursday, March 1, 2012
we are TEACHERS!
we CAN'T feel sad.. we should not have that kind of feeling or emotion.. even though when the kids didnt pay attention to lesson, didnt listen to us, didnt do the work, didnt appreciate the efforts we put in preparing the teaching aids... we SHOULD ONLY love them..
oooh i forgotten... we are not human... we are TEACHERS!
oooh i forgotten... we are not human... we are TEACHERS!
Tuesday, February 28, 2012
Today was A Bad Day
first, i woke up late... when i opened my eyes.. the sun was shining straight to my face.. the heat of the sun hit me, thus it woke me up... i was confused... i was wondering if i woke up from evening nap... but then, evening nap means i slept after i came back from work..isnt it? but how come i have no memory of being at school? so, i searched for my phone.. cant find it! WHERE IS IT???? after a few moment of chaos, i finally found it... in my handbag... looking at the phone, it shockingly shown 7.40 a.m. WHUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUT???? terrified and completely flustered.. i sms-ed one of my school teacher, asking whether my school headmaster was in good mood or bad.. coz i'm gonna call him to ask for CRK... however, due to bad celcom connection, the sms didnt reach her... so, after paring to God, i called my headmaster.. sincerely confessed to him, he laughed listening to it... dude.. i was really scared when i was about to call him, but the moment i heard him laughing..... uuuuuuh... thank God... he told me to just come to school.... well... although i was actually hopping he would just approve my CRK.... so that i can continue with my sleep, but then, since he wasnt angry, i woke up from bed and get ready...
arriving at school, with attention from a few teachers who saw my car entering the school gate, i simply waved and smiled at them... LOL...
but the whole bad situation didnt just stop there.. another unfortunate event continued to happen during the recess time. out of all time, must it really happened at that time? i fell flat on the floor in front of the English Hut... i lost my balance? i fell asleep? fainted?.. the minute i realized it, i was already lying on the floor... the school cleaners rushed to me, to help me get up... since it happened during the recess time, definitely all of the pupils were at the canteen... AND THE TEACHERS TOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO... demnit! that was the very first tie i fainted.. i guess i fainted...
aaaaaaaaaih.... despite all the bad things happened.. stayed back at school until 5 something, since i have extra class with the year 6 pupils, and PIBG meeting!
arriving at school, with attention from a few teachers who saw my car entering the school gate, i simply waved and smiled at them... LOL...
but the whole bad situation didnt just stop there.. another unfortunate event continued to happen during the recess time. out of all time, must it really happened at that time? i fell flat on the floor in front of the English Hut... i lost my balance? i fell asleep? fainted?.. the minute i realized it, i was already lying on the floor... the school cleaners rushed to me, to help me get up... since it happened during the recess time, definitely all of the pupils were at the canteen... AND THE TEACHERS TOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO... demnit! that was the very first tie i fainted.. i guess i fainted...
aaaaaaaaaih.... despite all the bad things happened.. stayed back at school until 5 something, since i have extra class with the year 6 pupils, and PIBG meeting!
Monday, February 27, 2012
Housemates
For the rest of the time i've been teaching in this place, i've been staying with more than one housemates... Met various types of people, with various personalities, behaviors and attitude...
The first housemate was AA... i have no problem with her... she was a lay back person..and we occasionally have fun together.. although both of us didn't really share the same interest, i have no problem fitting in with her..
After a few days, or maybe a week or more?? HAHAHHAa... cant really recall... another 2 housemates moved in... they were J and MA... huummmp... at first i cant really fit in with MA and J... i found it awkward with both of them... J was too straightforward, that she often made me feel unappreciated, while MA .... nothing happened between the both of us.. but it was just awkward... AA and J weren't staying long with us since they are contract workers.. after a few months, their contracts were ended..so they moved out from our house.. leaving me and MA staying together... i guessed this was the survival situation happened.. because there were just the both of us staying together, we began to fit each other and talked more frequent... things went on well until a new housemate moved in...
another girl moved into the house... let me introduced her as ES... ES was someone that MA knew through facebook, ES was a friend of MA's friend.. so,although they didnt really closely acquainted, but they have heard of each other previously... besides, ES friends were also MA friends... so, in this case, i felt totally left out..they began to talk on things which i obviously have no idea..making me felt so left out... just to tell you ES was another straightforward person.. only that her level was so much higher than J... i always have problem with people who are straightforward.. because i am not that kind of person.. i frequently felt hurt and sad because of their words.. this is because, i am not the type of person who easily share my feelings..thus this kind of people often make me offended... although at first we were completely fine.. slowly i felt deserted... i just have no idea why... i let it be...
until one day... another girl moved in.. and she was EE... my first impression of EE wasnt that good... i found her too social and wild.. but after a few week staying with her, i figured out that she wasn't like that... i think she was cute despite of her age... i mean.. she was older than me.. but maybe because of her personality... i never really feel the age gap... until one day... MA and ES moved out from the house..leaving both me and EE... i totally have no idea why both of them moved... the only thing i knew, both of them moved out at peak of awkwardness occurred in the house.. i was away when they left the house, attending a three days course.. so i didnt get any explanation from them on why they moved.. even EE asked me why, which i was totally clueless
since then, i stayed with EE for really long time... we mixed with each other well... no problem at all.. we went out and have fun together..shared happy moments together....
finally recently... both of us get 2 new housemates...
they didnt come together... one of them moved in the of mid january... she is NA... NA is just like many other girl.. i didnt find it hard to mix with her.. we may not share the same interest, but things just go on well.... she is someone who is easy going.. was quite jealous of her personality.. she is able to mingle with guys easily.. maybe because of her working environment....
and lastly a new housemate that just joined the house this week... or was it previous week? hummmp.. she is F... this one... kinda hard for me to say.. it is too early for me to judge her... but she has this ES personality.. her thing is hers.. other people things can also be hers.. which make the whole situation awkward... besides, she spent most of her time in her room..less communication will create uncomfortable atmosphere... totally dont like this at all
i hope, as time moves on.. she'll mix with us... unlike NA... although NA just stayed with me AN EE, we totally have no problem.. so far... kekekkeeee
The first housemate was AA... i have no problem with her... she was a lay back person..and we occasionally have fun together.. although both of us didn't really share the same interest, i have no problem fitting in with her..
After a few days, or maybe a week or more?? HAHAHHAa... cant really recall... another 2 housemates moved in... they were J and MA... huummmp... at first i cant really fit in with MA and J... i found it awkward with both of them... J was too straightforward, that she often made me feel unappreciated, while MA .... nothing happened between the both of us.. but it was just awkward... AA and J weren't staying long with us since they are contract workers.. after a few months, their contracts were ended..so they moved out from our house.. leaving me and MA staying together... i guessed this was the survival situation happened.. because there were just the both of us staying together, we began to fit each other and talked more frequent... things went on well until a new housemate moved in...
another girl moved into the house... let me introduced her as ES... ES was someone that MA knew through facebook, ES was a friend of MA's friend.. so,although they didnt really closely acquainted, but they have heard of each other previously... besides, ES friends were also MA friends... so, in this case, i felt totally left out..they began to talk on things which i obviously have no idea..making me felt so left out... just to tell you ES was another straightforward person.. only that her level was so much higher than J... i always have problem with people who are straightforward.. because i am not that kind of person.. i frequently felt hurt and sad because of their words.. this is because, i am not the type of person who easily share my feelings..thus this kind of people often make me offended... although at first we were completely fine.. slowly i felt deserted... i just have no idea why... i let it be...
until one day... another girl moved in.. and she was EE... my first impression of EE wasnt that good... i found her too social and wild.. but after a few week staying with her, i figured out that she wasn't like that... i think she was cute despite of her age... i mean.. she was older than me.. but maybe because of her personality... i never really feel the age gap... until one day... MA and ES moved out from the house..leaving both me and EE... i totally have no idea why both of them moved... the only thing i knew, both of them moved out at peak of awkwardness occurred in the house.. i was away when they left the house, attending a three days course.. so i didnt get any explanation from them on why they moved.. even EE asked me why, which i was totally clueless
since then, i stayed with EE for really long time... we mixed with each other well... no problem at all.. we went out and have fun together..shared happy moments together....
finally recently... both of us get 2 new housemates...
they didnt come together... one of them moved in the of mid january... she is NA... NA is just like many other girl.. i didnt find it hard to mix with her.. we may not share the same interest, but things just go on well.... she is someone who is easy going.. was quite jealous of her personality.. she is able to mingle with guys easily.. maybe because of her working environment....
and lastly a new housemate that just joined the house this week... or was it previous week? hummmp.. she is F... this one... kinda hard for me to say.. it is too early for me to judge her... but she has this ES personality.. her thing is hers.. other people things can also be hers.. which make the whole situation awkward... besides, she spent most of her time in her room..less communication will create uncomfortable atmosphere... totally dont like this at all
i hope, as time moves on.. she'll mix with us... unlike NA... although NA just stayed with me AN EE, we totally have no problem.. so far... kekekkeeee
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