do you hate me??

its been quite long since the previous entry... well if there is anyone reading this, well i bet there isn't which i kinda like it too, because it makes me free to express myself here, without being restricted, for your information, i am no diligent blog writer. i write whenever i feel like i want to, and whatever i think at that particular moment.

as for now, i suddenly feel like writing an entry due to yesterday incident. fist allow me to explain, that i am a newbie educator.. that's what people in my field love to call ourselves.. we aint teacher. we come to school everyday to educate youngsters, and not to teach, although yeaah somehow reflecting back on NKRA and related stuff which requires us to produce kids with good greds and not kids who holistically developed, then we teach!

after almost 4 years of undergoing the true reality of malaysian education scenario, i finally start to change into a no longer yes mam, i'll do it, and nod nod type of person, to a hey you, please, i dont think that's my work to do.

when we carried our P & P, which is actually mean Pembelajaran dan Pengajaran, we teachers often nagged and even scolded the kids when we found out that they didnt pay attention to us. but then, didnt we learned it during our university times, that kids have really short attention span? yet we forced them to sit all day long, listening to us talk talk and talk and expect them to absorb it all? because they are kids, then we should be able to understand their nature of easily deteriorating interest towards lesson, thus teachers are encouraged to include games, quizzes, crafts and some other cross curricular activities throughout the lesson. so that the pupils won't despise the sight of us entering the class, knowing it will be a long dragging hours of boring stuff.

i somehow think, that i am an attention seeker, or even desperado, because i am worried if my kids dont like me. i'll try my best to please them throughout my lesson. hating me will somehow makes them hate the subject i taught. hating the subject means dieeeeeeeeee....

then again, what if adults unable to give their focus and attention during important discussion or talk? okay lets make it straight to the point. TEACHERS! what if teachers unable to listen well and grab the main gist of a discussion. then it means you'll start asking questions for thing you should very well known thus irritating others. and this, seriously kill me.

its like a doctor went to a clinic and asked to the others what he should do.

that kind of thing... dont you just feel like strangling them to death? and just because of that, i generously 'sound' a senior teacher yesterday during a meeting. A VERY SENIOR AND EXTRA SENSITIVE TEACHER.

now, DO YOU HATE ME??






.........do i even give a shit.......