lets go straight to the point... i have no intention of going around the bush and talking something unrelated to this...
today was the third day of the second term of 2012 school session... and yes i am still having a hard time to gather my spirit and commitment to continue *well since when did i really have it?*
i was on my ALMOST 2 weeks holiday starting last 30th Mei till 9th June. definitely that almost 2 weeks holiday was something that all teachers been waiting for after months of working our ass of trying to make sure the kids get at least a passing gred for all subjects. YES we worked our ass to make sure they get passing gred and A.. not much of real education... because real education wont pretty much help the kids to further their study to a better high school. haunted by the upper department people, either the one in the school itself, or the district people, also the state people. each time they came, what they wanted are greds! they wont bother whether the kids really are able to apply it, use it and benefit what they learned. ITS GRED TALKING! NOTHING ELSE.
well working on gred trust me is not an easy task to do. because most of the kids know and understand what we taught them, and able to respond to our questions and solve task given, yet they found it very problematic and troublesome when they were asked to pour it out on a piece of paper.
many of teachers found it really weird why this situation happened and it often frustrate us, because we know our kids and we know they are smart, clever or maybe good enough, but their greds were showing the other way round.
thus, we hesitantly not, carried out various extra classes and workshops in order to share with the kids all available answering methods. it is free for the kids to pick which way they feel comfortable with and easy to work with. after school, night, weekend even public holidays. but the amount of effort put didnt always give the expected impact. go and ask any hospital, clinic, you may get answer from the doctors and staffs, that most high blood pressure and heart problem are teachers. well guess why? we are always worried. about our kids education, performance and future. tell me how wont us worry when they are already at the age of 12, but still having problem in writing and reading. right now i'm at the age in which i see all the kids as my brothers and sisters, because i do have brother at their age. as much as i am worried about my youngest brother performance, i am worried about my kids too. i saw how much hope my parents have on him, thus i believe those kids' parents too have a high hope on their kids. but tell me what to do. all i wanna do is making sure that the kids gt good result, as we all know, *if you are a parent* whenever your kids show you their good result, it will be one of a great moment. we want to give you that feeling, the feeling that you know your kids are doing well and you have a great son / daughter. because of that, we often frustrated with the end result.
having all these to worry and work on, my 2 weeks relaxing holiday was totally disturbed when my mother kind of pushing me to find a guy to marry with. i understand, it is not her fault entirely. i am already at the age in which i am supposed to have my own family now. and my parents are at the age when they are supposed to see some lil kids running around... *not belong to them, but mine*. my father is someone who others know, thus because of that, may people will be asking when he'll be a father in law and all... same goes to my mom... they must be stressed because of it too...
now.... how....
i am just fine now... not that i dont want someone to love... but so far i havent met one that i love
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