[EVENT] XiaH jUNsu 22nd BIrTHdaY ceLEBratiOn

To my lovely sabang, Kim Xiah Junsu;

Aaaaaah..this might be too late, since your birthday is 15 December, still i wanna wish you a very happy birthday. You're turning 22 already, thou in korea you are 23. i was kinda lazy..nooo..busy, yeah..the word is busy, promoting all over soompi, imeem and friendster, searchng as many people as i can to make the volunteey activity with malaysia national zoo a success *because we need at least 50 peole to join the activity i order to make it*, but sadly your buin here had failed to do so... waaaaaaaahahahahaa....*sobbing*. as soon as people hear it a 'working' activity many turn away... although there are quite many people who really want to do it....cant really blame them..since many of your fans are highschoolers, so its quite hard for them to get permission from their parents, since many of them are living far from the place where we planned to carry out the volunteery....so, i failed it....forgive me.*your buin is totally incapable of being a leader* wuhuhuuuhu

lets leave all the rant behind, and let me wish you for your birthday, since i dont know what are your wish for this birthday, but for me;

- i sincerely hope that you will be happy in any things you do, i know that being DBSK must be fulled with responsibilities, but if you do it with all your heart, you'll definitely found the happiness in it...it may be tough, i may be hard, to certain point you might think of giving up and start doubting whether this is really the life that you want, well i dont have the answer and i have no rigt to answer it on behalf of you, but stay strong because good things will come at any times we might never expect it....

- i also wish that you'll be blessed with good health so that nothing would stop you from doing what you want and striving for your dreams...because i know, if something happened to you, the rest of the members will also emotionally sick..soo, take care of your health, because i am far and can't get to you....eat healty foods and if possible, dont eat too many fried chickens, that s full with cholestrol, not good for your lung...also, you habit of eating fast, aigoo..sabang, thats also very very very bad habit, slow down and enjoy the food slowly...the food wont run away *unless it is stole by changmin, then i cant say anything* hahahahahaahaaaaa

- i wish that dbsk will continue being a great group, loved by everyone *except the antis..* because of the talents that all of you have, because of your good personality and image, because of your kindness and love, because of your down to earth attitude although all of you are on top asia, and definitely because of the voice that sway all the heart that listens to it....all of you are definitely born to the earth to sing...trust me, listening to all of you singing together, talking and laughing, crying and bragging *hahahhaaaaa*, give many people strengths and lighten the days...to certain extend, without you knew it, all of you becoming the reason why live the life to the fullest and not willing to give up, seeing all of you working so hard, day and night, sacrificing your privacy and your life, all of us can just sit and do nothing but only listen to your voice, but we too wil work hard, for our life, with the strength that you gave us...tanx

- wishing you all the best for the coming 2009, bet many things had been planned and i'll be anticipating it.....

once again, i want to wish you, a very happy bithday.... *mmuah*

[ICE] maYBe i SHouLD tRY tO Be SoMEonE eLSe

if i can turn back time...maybe...to the time when i was 15 years old..yeah... i wish i could go back to the time...i'll try my best to make sure that when turn to this age, i wont be me...simply because there is nothing about me that i'm impressed, or should i say, if you know me, believe me, there wouldnt be anything about me that you'll be impressed...but wait!! yaah..you'll find one. you'll be impressed how in the world there is not a single thing about me as a human being that you could be impresed with...simply because i am nothing!! unworthy!! maybe i shouldnt actually be born...if i could turn back time....i'll make sure

1) i'm a good daughter to both my mum and my dad..as i am the only daughter, they must have high expectation towards me the day i was born and along the times they grown me...but i guessed they dont have that expectation anymore...they must have accepted the fact that their daughter aint like other people's daughter...they must be embarrased of having me as their daughter and the oldest child...i'm a spoiled girl, but trust me, its not my parents fault at all...its not.
2) i'll be a good sister to my three younger brothers, show them good examples, lead them and play my role as a sister that they can rely on...i'm sorry to my younger brother, the one who was born 4 years after me, he is my younger brother, but because of me...he as to carry out the responsibility of the oldest child since i did not...i'm sorry
3) i'll study hard and make both of my parents proud of me...i wont waste their money...they spend a lot of money on me, especially when i said it is for schooling and studying purposes..not once they declined it...but i'm simply a child who didnt feel grateful for all my parents sacrifices and loves
4) i'll be a good muslim so that i wont burdened my parents...since they are my parents and they are responsible on what kind of muslims i turn into...i must have burdened them with my loads of sins....mum..dad...i'm sorry.....
5) i'll lead a brave and confident life, heading forward and striving for my dream of involving in art and stage performant
6) i'll be a good citizen of the country and contribute towards the country that accept me to live in it thou till now i didnt do much for it

but i'm sorry...i'm no longer a 15 years old girl...there is nothing that i could do to change who i am now...its too late...too late...as a muslim i know, the only life we will have after this is the after life....i know as a muslim, this life on this very earth ground is our only chance, before we return to our creator, to be judge for all our doings for the rest of our life...i must be a bad girl...will deffinitely be punished....

i'm sorry....i really am...sorry....

to both my parents...my brothers...my best friends *from my side you are my best friends*...my friends who have been together with me all this while....for everyone who knows me...

i'm sorry...and i love all of you~~~

[ICE] iS tHErE aNY wAYs LiFE coULd Be BEttEr ThaN ThiS

greetings to everyone who is currently reading this~~~~~~~~~~~~

WELCOME TO THE BLOG WHERE I WRITE ANYTHING I FEEL TO WRITE and please…. if you don’t like it…..GO AWAY!!!

i don’t need any bashers and haters….as i am no one… so don’t waste your time on me…. i appreciate it, but no need.

some may know me as blackelement a.r while others know me as ICE

‘blackelement a.r’ is the widely used username that i registered in any sort of online forumming world and sites like this…but for people who share the same ‘interest’ and ‘obssesion’ with me normally called me ICE

hmm…drop the question on why i used the name please…cause i don’t bother to answer it. but let me give you some hints… the names are based on my personality and first impression that i normally gave to others *in fact after the second, third, fourth times you might still have the same impression about me*

but ey~~~~ don’t get me wrong….i’m a nice girl *depends on the situations*. i do have mood swings,but most of the time i’m a friendly next door girl *try me!*

i was 10 of september 1985, afternoon…..so now you know how i get my image and character don’t you? *since you already know my birthday, i’ll be expecting lots of gifts and wishes for the next coming birthday, or i’ll haunt you down*. born, growing and still living in the land of hypocrisy under the sky of greed… here i am MAZLIANA ABDUL RAHMAN. *the name is after my dad’s ex-girlfriend in case you interested to know*. i was supposed to be named AMELIA *mum loves it, but no thanks* no offend to any amelias out there…just that i found the name doesn’t suit me at all….* i picture amelia as someone cute and loveable* which i am obviously not! if you are ‘good in math’ you’ll know that i am 23 now and proud of it!!

i love music and it rules my life…its THE ONLY source of my energy to continue inhaling the ‘full of VITAMINS and NUTRITIONS’ air of Malaysia. i isten to all kind of music, from emo to sweety candy types *depending on the mood, situation ad atmostphere that i want to create at the moment.

PROUD BEING A CASSIOPEIA AND ALSO A BIGEAST!

if you know what i mean.