currently obssessing over Lee Seung Gi

all thanks to King 2 Hearts that makes me fall in love with his charismatic king character.. Lee Seung Gi.. i think you should really be a king.. wang saeja... kekekek.... you have that stand... and make me your wangbi mama please............. heheheh

The King 2 Hearts drama

done watching The King 2Hearts.... i guessed its korean drama latest trend... they wont have a 100% happy ending for the characters.... all the same in Rooftop Prince, and Fashion King too...
watching K2H makes me wonder.... does our King face that kind of issues and problems too?? leading a nation is definitely not an easy task....

how long will continue with this

6.25 am - wake up
6.57 am - drive to school
7.10 am - arrive at school
7.20 am - school session starts
1.10 pm - school session end

1.30 pm - 4.30 pm - possibilities for meeting, discussions and courses

5.00 pm - evening nap
6.30 pm - wake up

8.00 pm - 11.00 pm - sit at the living room, with laptop, and writing RPH

11.30 pm - iron baju kurung

12.30 pm - sleep


EVERYDAY..................................................................... the whole routine will be repeated 5 or 6 days a week

do you hate me??

its been quite long since the previous entry... well if there is anyone reading this, well i bet there isn't which i kinda like it too, because it makes me free to express myself here, without being restricted, for your information, i am no diligent blog writer. i write whenever i feel like i want to, and whatever i think at that particular moment.

as for now, i suddenly feel like writing an entry due to yesterday incident. fist allow me to explain, that i am a newbie educator.. that's what people in my field love to call ourselves.. we aint teacher. we come to school everyday to educate youngsters, and not to teach, although yeaah somehow reflecting back on NKRA and related stuff which requires us to produce kids with good greds and not kids who holistically developed, then we teach!

after almost 4 years of undergoing the true reality of malaysian education scenario, i finally start to change into a no longer yes mam, i'll do it, and nod nod type of person, to a hey you, please, i dont think that's my work to do.

when we carried our P & P, which is actually mean Pembelajaran dan Pengajaran, we teachers often nagged and even scolded the kids when we found out that they didnt pay attention to us. but then, didnt we learned it during our university times, that kids have really short attention span? yet we forced them to sit all day long, listening to us talk talk and talk and expect them to absorb it all? because they are kids, then we should be able to understand their nature of easily deteriorating interest towards lesson, thus teachers are encouraged to include games, quizzes, crafts and some other cross curricular activities throughout the lesson. so that the pupils won't despise the sight of us entering the class, knowing it will be a long dragging hours of boring stuff.

i somehow think, that i am an attention seeker, or even desperado, because i am worried if my kids dont like me. i'll try my best to please them throughout my lesson. hating me will somehow makes them hate the subject i taught. hating the subject means dieeeeeeeeee....

then again, what if adults unable to give their focus and attention during important discussion or talk? okay lets make it straight to the point. TEACHERS! what if teachers unable to listen well and grab the main gist of a discussion. then it means you'll start asking questions for thing you should very well known thus irritating others. and this, seriously kill me.

its like a doctor went to a clinic and asked to the others what he should do.

that kind of thing... dont you just feel like strangling them to death? and just because of that, i generously 'sound' a senior teacher yesterday during a meeting. A VERY SENIOR AND EXTRA SENSITIVE TEACHER.

now, DO YOU HATE ME??






.........do i even give a shit.......

bahasa bunga bunga guy? yes and no!

romantic guy? yes if he express himself to me.. secretly to me.. not for anyone else..in public?? just help me by not doing it... i'll die there and then!
guy with flowery decorative cherry on top type of talking, again! NOOOOOOOOOOO!
*runaway as far as i can*

just when i responded to someone on why this person felt down, and that person replied to me with all this wiseman talk, seriously kill me!
and thus i made a status on facebook how the respond literally scared the shit out of me *without making it obvious that i was talking about it*, and the person 'like' my status and being all concern...

a.w.k.w.a.r.d...............................

i'm as simple as that

that happy moment when you finally found your pupils answering questions the way you taught them how... a teacher happiness is as simple as that.. we dont ask for complicated things...
no please dont get me wrong.. i have no intention of forming a stereotypical group of robotic pupils who answered questions in the same exact form as i thought them too..
for me, it means they understood what i thought.. it means my objectives were successfully achieved.. and based on their understanding of what i taught, they are free to manipulate the questions and answer it using as many ways as they can, as long as it is in line with the expected answers...
whenever pupils get a correct answer, get good mark, teachers are the one who will feel happy, though the pupils dont really care.. because most of the time, i imagined myself teaching my brothers... as much as i am worried for my brother's future when he unable to perform well at school, i have the same concern for my pupils..
i'm foolish right right? that i am judging my brother's and pupils' future simply basing on their education performance....

we are TEACHERS!

we CAN'T feel sad.. we should not have that kind of feeling or emotion.. even though when the kids didnt pay attention to lesson, didnt listen to us, didnt do the work, didnt appreciate the efforts we put in preparing the teaching aids... we SHOULD ONLY love them..
oooh i forgotten... we are not human... we are TEACHERS!